You know A levels just ended... I've been wanting to update my online profile for so so long but i guess i can't find the time to... I mean with your brothers hogging the computer most of the time and not being able to use it at night i mean... go figure...
Let me rant a little bit about my life first... FIrst having ending A level I ain't got no cash... Ta-da i gotta look for a job says mum and i mean what in the world... Why no allowance... b'cos she raise it during the a level period... fine... i say...
Shoot too many dots...
I really don't know why i'm blogging about anything right now because all my thoughts are just jumbled up in my head...
I mean.... you'll see...
Title one: It's too late to apologise
Let me tell you this (why does the enter key give me two line spacings instead of one???)
Anyway back to the topic, I find that after such a long time of saying sorry now and again to the people I love, the friends I know and the people that care for me. It has officially lost its meaning. I cannot count how many times i've said sorry this month and its only the fifth and i guess i gotta say sorry to Si because I guess I won't be going to his Birthday party. Nuff said.
To all my peep out there who are for some odd reason checking out my supposedly dead blog, let me give you one lesson to take away today.
It is always too late to apologise.
Where has all the sincerity gone when you've done something wrong, where has it dissapeared to? Has it all condensed into something called "I'm Sorry, please forgive me"
I mean has our world become so fast paced that these words have become such a convenient thing to say? Look im not talking about saying sorry over just a spilled cup of jo, im talking about saying sorry everytime you are late, saying sorry everytime you forgot something and saying sorry for the thing you've said or done.
Its not just that one sorry that makes the word seem meaningless (other than the fact that its something for you to break that silence let alone the fact that you can't find anything else to say) its all the sorry-ies you add up together in the week that your fingers and toes can't even count.
Believe me go add them up consciously and tell me how many sorry-ies have come your way or outta your mouth, you'll be amazed. Either that or i'm a very problematic wolf.
I challenge you today to do this. I will do it too.
Please, I don't want the words I'm sorry to lose meaning in this world of ours, I want it to be sincere and not something convenient.
It is always too late to apologise, don't give yourself the opportunity to say sorry. Don't or else one day, sorry might just be the thing no one ever wants to hear ever again.
Title Two: Ties that bind
When it comes to relationships i can only thing of one thing a spider's web. Why? Well it is because of the complexity of it and the magic within it because how can something so fine so complex be able to stand and hold up, in a way very majestic.
I can only thing of one reason. A miracle of nature.
That is what it is.
I can't thing of the many things in my life today that doesn't seem complex to me at all.
How do you ensure all the ties are equally strong? Where is that universal scale of balance in this? All the questions I cannot give you an answer today its just that it seems that the image of the world is a facade hiding life's most deepest questions.
There is no theory on how to raise a family there are only tips, there is no secret formula to a healthy relationship only touching stories. I tell you that in all in life the most complex thing is our relationship with the people we don't really know, to the people we know, to the people we really know and most importantly and the most close to us, the people we love.
We can't understand each other fully, sometimes I think we don't really understand each other at all. As for me, I'm a wolf, as in I am me. The people I love come first. The people I care for come first. I want them all to be happy.
A friend, A wolf, Donovan.
