@ UnHeardWolfCry

A brand new beginning

2011-11-27T13:12:00.000+08:00

This will be the first post of many to come by. As some of you may have noticed, my blog has undergone a makeover. Very simple easy to navigate and still in the process of further and new changes.

Call this a fresh start for me.

Lets recap what has gone on with this life of mine for the past few years. (I know this may bore some but nevertheless if you do continue to read, do it with caution.)

Having graduated from SAJC, home of the SAINTS

I have been down in the dumps (some call it depression) for the past one year or so. So of you people out there may ask why?

Simple.

I have been harboring thoughts that I made a wrong life decision, JC sooooo wasn't the path for me to choose and I just crave and yearn for the ability to run back in time to change my course of life. (When I say run its more of a sprint actually)

DISCLAIMER: Do take note that the information translated through this post bears no real truth and should be read for pure humor and enjoyment. This is in no way a real or serious depiction and must be taken LIGHT HEARTEDLY (All images are from Google)

No Matter. Now I am stuck in the hell of a hole made by my beloved nation.

Singapore.

What is this hell hole called?

Why do I call it a hell hole? Easy.

Its just like hell, a cycle of death.

Enlistment -- The First Death

First you enlist as Recruits,

and you undergo Basic Military Training (BMT) you get chewed and tortured at times and live in fear of what come next. Slowly life gets better as you're more accustomed to the hell you are in and then comes the Passing Out Parade (POP) where suddenly you see light at the end of the tunnel. Glorious Glorious light and you get your Block Leave. A week of freedom and heaven.

Next the Chains of Hell drag you back to the Hell hole once more.

Posting -- The Varying Degrees of Torture. Second Death.

Some may receive their posting of a lifetime (literally) why? Because they commit themselves to Hell in hopes that it will be better than the concrete jungle they face outside. I cannot give you first hand experience of how or what the contract of hell entails but from what I see, in time to come many cannot wait to get out when their deed is done.

No matter, even if you may or may not have chosen to sign your name on that piece of paper and say yes to the endless abyss, many of us are still forced to slave for two years in the hell hole. To us, here time stops and we fall behind many of our counterparts (Female/Sickly) who are furthering their education or have ventured out into the many concrete jungles in the world.

Back to the Second Death. Posting. Some may get slated to become an Officer and go to Officer Cadet School (OCS) others may be asked to join a group of Specialists and be transferred to Specialist Cadet School. (Used to be known as SISPEC, now SCS) The rest? What ever their posting be it Clerk, Storeman, Infantry, Armor or Air Force Technician (That's Me) We will all be sent to some form of training institute for varying amounts of time.

Even so the degree of torture in the various training schools vary...

From Complete and brutal Physical torture

to mindless drone work

and the occasional "I haven't got anything to do here! This is Para, para Paradise."

This song is good! Anyway back to the main point. We are once again the lowest lifeforms and most of us will get tortured in someway or another.

Finally after long (or short) and arduous training we will come to the final point of our journey (Or at least that's how i broke the stages of NS apart)

Transfer -- The third Death

After some may have gotten used to the life in the training institute it is once again time to graduate (get posted out "AGAIN")

Finally we have made our way to the various units where we are ONCE AGAIN the new kid on the block (the lowest life form) be it you're an Officer, Sergeant or lowly Private. You live your life here and climb up the ranks (Socially/Military) in hope your life gets better.

As time goes by, you climb out of the hell of a hole and pursue what you want to do in life. Maybe even get stuck in a brand new hell hole (I'll never know)

Of course that isn't to say that NS is necessarily a bad thing. To me I just take things as they come but no one can deny the fact that this liability (at least to most of us) does set us back a year or two.

Did you know...

Singapore is currently among the list of countries with the longest military service only falling behind Israel and South Korea.

And here is a link to our very own set of videos featuring the Singapore army and more

SG defence

Wow that was a whole load of crap written up there.

But if you did somehow managed to carry on all the way till here i must say thank you for reading my post. Though i have to say it isn't over

Back to the main topic.

Today is the 27th of November, I have been in EX Wallaby for the past two and a half months. Most of my peers have just taken their flight home today, leaving me here to await my C130 flight back home.

Having taken many a month here thinking about the finer things in life I have decided to start blogging once again to rekindle something within me and this is just the start. I would call this post a milestone in my life and hopefully one that will last and slowly mature. So I will end this post here by say, watch this space for most posts.

Unheardwolfcry signing out.

A friend, A wolf.

Donovan.

Beyond!

Today Today Today...

2010-05-02T23:00:00.003+08:00

Its my turn to blog too and looking at all your touching posts have given me an idea to suprise you ;)

Here goes...

Dear Kitty,

Looks like I'm already back in camp, took the ferry... Boarded a bus... Wolfiie misses you, he says he'll see you next friday.

I'm lying on the bunk bed now, you guessed right, i sleep on the top bunk, third bed. Its lights out now, i just called you, i can't help but think about you. I remember your blog post and how sad and lonely you are. I think about your school and how great at marketing you're becoming.

Probably a Pokka Marketer right?

I just remember tonight as i close my eyes i see your very own cute smiley cute kitty eyes looking back at me.

Like this one you know

Have I ever told you, that in which ever eye you look at me I get the feeling that you are trying to tell me something. Sometimes you turn and say wolfiie! You look at me with those awesomely cute kitty eyes, make me so happy! Hold my hand and everything.

Its exactly how pikachu makes you feeeeel :D Then you get those awwwwwww so cute eyes too!

PIKACHU!

Other times you give me the grrr leave me alone eyes, i feel it a lot too... I'll turn sad, sometimes unhappy wondering what i did wrong, then i look at you again and notice that you are hurt, you are in pain. I just know that I can't stay unhappy, not when you are such. I turn i try to disturb you, i try to cheer you up, i know i become a little bit retarded sometimes. But yeah... Kitty its your smile I want to see.

See :D

There are times when your eyes show mist, show confusion and you are at a lost. Thats when you don't want to talk about anything at all... Nothing at all and no matter what i say or do you'll just say that you're not thinking of anything.

I just want you to know that through all the happy, sad and even those eyes at a lost. I close my eyes and think about you, about your eyes and how beautiful the night sky is.

Because, I know im always with you and you with me. Because of all those stars in your eyes. The stars in the sky, kitty we watch over each other.

Good Night Dear.
Sweet Dreams.
Miss you.
Love you.

*curls up in the microfibre blanket*

Night Night everyone. Night Night Kitty :$ *howls!!!*

It never turns away

2010-02-26T18:21:00.001+08:00

Nope... Past August into September.

I love her. Extra loads

You know something

2010-02-26T17:13:00.002+08:00

I stopped at AUG 2009...

Somehow I can't continue...

Today is that very day. FEB 2010.

Double Post Haiti -- We Are the World

2010-02-24T06:23:00.005+08:00

The Classic Remade... Here's the whole cast.

Conductors:
Quincy Jones
Lionel Richie

Soloists (in order of appearance)
Justin Bieber
Nicole Scherzinger
Jennifer Hudson
Jennifer Nettles
Josh Groban
Tony Bennett
Mary J. Blige
Michael Jackson (in the video)
Janet Jackson
Barbra Streisand
Miley Cyrus
Enrique Iglesias
Jamie Foxx
Wyclef Jean
Adam Levine
Pink
BeBe Winans
Usher
Celine Dion
Orianthi (on guitar)
Fergie
Nick Jonas
Toni Braxton
Mary Mary
Isaac Slade
Lil Wayne
Carlos Santana (on guitar)
Akon
T-Pain
LL Cool J (Rap)
Will.i.am (Rap)
Snoop Dogg (Rap)
Busta Rhymes (Rap)
Swizz Beatz (Rap)
Iyaz (Rap)
Kanye West

Chorus
Patti Austin
Philip Bailey
Fonzworth Bentley
Bizzy Bone
Ethan Bortnick
Jeff Bridges
Zac Brown
Brandy
Kristian Bush
Natalie Cole
Harry Connick Jr.
Nikka Costa
Kid Cudi
Faith Evans
Melanie Fiona
Sean Garrett
Tyrese Gibson
Anthony Hamilton
Rick Hendrix
Keri Hilson
Julianne Hough
Nipsey Hussle
India.Arie
Randy Jackson
Taj Jackson
Taryll Jackson
TJ Jackson
Al Jardine
Jimmy Jean-Louis
Ralph Johnson
Joe Jonas
Kevin Jonas
Nick Jonas
Rashida Jones
Gladys Knight
Benji Madden
Harlow Madden
Joel Madden
Katharine McPhee
Jason Mraz
Mýa
Freda Payne
A. R. Rahman
RedOne
Nicole Richie
Raphael Saadiq
Trey Songz
Musiq Soulchild
Jordin Sparks
Robin Thicke
Rob Thomas
Vince Vaughn
Verdine White
Ann Wilson
Brian Wilson
Nancy Wilson

Couldn't Help it I double posted. Please share the video. Please.

Karaoke...

2010-02-22T14:20:00.005+08:00

Hey heard the not so recent advancement of starhub cable TV?

Well if you haven't seen the ads on your tv box or something then its time for you to realise that STARHUB now offers KARAOKE!!!!

I mean really check it out! Haha old news to most people

YEAH! Now time for every husband out there to get back starhub cable vision so that the ladies can have a ladies night and sing all night long, while the men can watch footy in the living room :/

Ladies Night with Starhub

then when singtel gets the epl privileges its footy with singtel :/

doesn’t mean the men can’t sing right?

Anyway ever wondered where karaoke originated from? Well well take a small guess ;)

JAPAN! KARAOKE!

KARA meaning empty (no not you kara :X)

OKE being the short form of okesutora (ie. orchestra)

We all don’t need any explanation on how or what is karaoke but hmm doesn’t hurt to compare a few :D

Lets start with two of the most popular by far…

KBox

and

you name it…

Party World of course.

So what do we need to look at? Membership benefits? Prices? Song Choices?

Lets start with their price list first

For KBox they charge per head per session. So lets us have a troop of 4.

They would pay… $18++ on a regular day per pax or $25++ for Friday and Saturday

This is for 7pm till closing.

and this does not include service charge, GST or the compulsory copyright charge, $2++ per person
also the $7++ per one or two people which is the compulsory tidbits charge.

so if we sum it all up its about $24++ per pax on a regular day and $34++ for Friday and Saturday.

Did i mention each person gets two complimentary drinks?

hmmm…

What about Party World?
For the same troop of 4…
They would have to pay $50++ in total for a 4 hour session on a regular day or $78++ in total on Friday or Saturday.
this is from 8pm till closing hour… but the session is limited to 4 hours.
and this does not include service charge, GST or the compulsory copyright charge or the tidbits charge and stuff like that. Prices can’t be found on their website… so I assume that it is the same price as KBox for calculations sake :D
so if we calculate per pax then for Party World it’s $18++ on a regular day and $25++ on a Friday or Saturday.
Lastly did I mention that each person is entitled one complimentary drink?
So on price listing… Party world saves us 6-9 dollars.

Moving on…

I don’t want to talk about their membership stuff mainly because… there isn’t many uses and that this post is getting to darn long.

So if we look at song choice which neither of them have anything on their website…

through my own personal experience and some snooping around i can conclude that Party World is slightly back dated by about a month whereas KBox is quite up to date… ON CHINESE SONGS.

If we look at the other languages… (mainly English) I say they don’t have many of the songs and more over… most oldies or slightly not so new anymore kind of songs have ultra disgusting videos… such as this one right here.

I don’t mean to say the videos are of animals and stuff… but…. Well… you go try and see for yourself. Besides… why don’t they redo their english song database. I mean, isn’t there some kind of demand?

I know I want something better that monkey’s attacking deer’s :/

Okay okay I am english Biased. :D (smiling at it too)

So… Party World or KBox? Give me a little hands up on
who you’re voting for.

And on a side note. What about all those rock band and guitar hero (band hero) sing a long games, I am sure you’ve played them.

So another vote, Karaoke or New Age Video Games?

and what is your take on the Starhub Channel 888 the Karaoke one? From what I’ve heard, they have horrid song choice. Okay maybe not horrid but… They don’t have a good one. *shrugs*

Till my next insanely long post :D

Howls from a howling wolf!

Please Tag I appreciate it :D

One Last note... I removed those... argh videos already sorry for all the trouble.

Fats... Get fit or get slim... Or get fat?!

2010-02-21T16:16:00.000+08:00

You know I was thinking...

You see on the TV...

The biggest loser! Yeah it has even come to asia (because they have the prove the americans aren't the only one's who are fat) *shrugs*

and... You know about those weight loss books ?

Wouldn't you like one that just says...

Like wooooo hooooo have great sex and lose weight ;0

Time for all of us to check out the Karmasutra huh?

Anyway how about this one?

I mean how many of you people out there have tried to diet?

I mean we all know... Eat your vegetables.... less oil... less salt... eat the right food... But what the heck is the right food???

There's just soooooo much food *shrugs again*

Okay okay let me tell you something... When it comes to dieting.... I say...

WING IT! Yeah just wing it seriously... no dieting book can actually tell you how to properly lose weight... You'll probably again it all back again. I mean if you find something that works for you and stick with it :D

We all know... the essential ways to lose weight... We don't need some book to teach us how to lose weight ;) Especially not this one

Like I said we all know how to lose weight, like seriously do you need some blog post/book/tv program to remind you?

So I shout out to all the people who want to get slim!

Drop those get fit books, get of the couch and stop watching get fit tv shows!

We all know exercise does work... I mean really we all do need a little bit of exercise (no shopping doesn't count, running about orchard road doesn't count either)

No really exercise is GOOD ;D

So did you do it?

Even if it doesn't show results at first don't give up just yet ;)

and please it doesn't help either when you count your carbs

For me I think its just wasting time... Really... Who would keep a carb book right beside them? Not to mention pressing your calculator (or the one in your phone) everytime you start eating...

Just watch what you eat.

Not too much ice cream, eat different vegetables, have a good serving of rice or noodles and try not to eat fast food ;)

and really.... for goodness sake don't shoot the weighing machine, don't kill yourself over it either :D

So happy with the tips?

How about this one more food for thought :D

Have you ever wondered... What hasppened to all the skinny people who want to not just bulk up but actually gain a few kilograms?

I mean it only makes sense right? Some people wanna gain some while some others wanna lose some. Right? Or is it just me?

Anyway... ever wondered where all the how to gain weight books went to?

I think most never made the shelve... Except this one.

I wonder... Maybe someone should right a book on how to gain weight... see if it sells... and no I'm not talking about those build strong muscles book... just solely on weight gain... any ideas?

O and if you're french... and you wanna gain some weight... I guess you're out
of luck... but then again, women don't want to gain weight do they?

Okay thats all for now, till my next post!

Howls from an unheardwolf.

New Skin

2010-02-21T04:24:00.004+08:00

You know something I like this new skin of mine...

I'm sorry I've been having a dead blog ever since who knows when.

For me i like to blog just that now I don't get the liberty to use the computer so much... EXCUSES.

Besides... I want to express my views to the world you know? I'm thinking of journalism :D Sound good?

Anyway I hope you like this new blog skin please tag me with working links and I hope that you read my next post which will be out as soon a I wake up :D (Promise)

Thanks, From a howling wolf!

Blog still work in progress the final touchups are on its way ;)

Good night everyone!

O and by the way Like the new hair? Taken with my new phone ^^ The Sony Ericsson SATIO XD

Anyway till the next time!!! Bye ;)

I WAS ABOUT TO...

2010-01-07T02:54:00.003+08:00

Just when I was about to venture out to revamp my blog for the new year because this wolf is interested in journaling. I tell you I got a big culture shock on Facebook. I mean it opened my big thinking brain once again.

I think I can keep my promise this time. Im gonna blog regularly. Now here is a really long post. I promise i'll make the headings clear so you can skim through it too if you don't fancy reading a long post.

WARNING LONG POST...

Molested at countdown party -- Headline for the Straights Times Online.

Molest Video Stirs Outrage -- Yahoo News -- "What would you have done?"

On the forums??? This topic is probably everywhere!

For those who don't want the trouble of reading through online and searching the forums... Read my personal summary.

This might not be exactly what happened but... Close enough. At least from what I think.

4 men allegedly molested this girl during the 2010 countdown party at siloso beach. I shall show you the pictures. (or at least what is left of them)

Credits to Kitty's blog and where ever she got this from

I think this is more than enough to tell you what happened. I mean you see two men touching her this girl, one at her breast and the other seemingly her privates. I don't know how many of you find this a turn on at first but... Seriously this at a countdown party in front of onlookers? This is just wrong.

Let me explain to you why i got such a big culture shock.

NUMBER 1

There is this guy on FB who started commenting on Kitty's Wall...

I shall quote him... Via screenshots... Hah! So i don't twist anything.

Note the whole conversation is here because it is 13 screenshots long and yes I am outraged (see my MSN status)

Lets look at the case one by one.

First girl gets molested by 4 guys at the countdown party.

Setting: Dance Clubbing kind of thing

Place: Sentosa

Bystanders: I safely say at least 50

Now what I am so outraged about is the way people think and it is not just in that little Facebook arguement. (Its on Kelita's Wall BTW)

Some people begin to give excuses to why at the countdown party people just stand watch and take videos and photos. Here is the first most common one.

Reason 1

Its a club! Its a party! Nothing wrong with being grinded and touched all
over!

Nothing wrong? What are you people thinking? I think the girl is being molested and humiliated instead of the "normal" grinding and touching. I mean even if let say we accept grinding and groping, this is way beyond that...

Reason 2a

Hey she asked for it and she enjoyed it! Let her be molested!

No matter how much anyone enjoys being molested (that is just sadistic) you still gotta be there to stop the act. Its just too much. Plus i can think of countless of reasons why she didn’t resist, she might have been on high or even dead drunk in a semi conscious state (thats just my guess though)

And yes i agree there is more than what the videos show (video will come later down the post)

Reason 2b

Hey look she’s stripping! O.O She’s like it! Let her enjoy! We also can enjoy free show!

Bet you bunch of perverts saw this coming and like to continue to see it right? I mean okay she’s drunk, feels a little horny maybe a bit hot after all that alcohol… She strips and four men dancing with her gets horny too… Then they molest her all over maybe even have some form of fingering… THIS GETTING YOU TURNED ON?

I mean what the heck! Stop this disgraceful act… I know singapore kinda has a ban on porn and we don’t get some live action… but gosh seriously? Are we that desperate for a scene? This is disgraceful to the girl, embarassing to the men and the bunch of people who video taped it are a bunch of perverts and losers. Thats that.

Reason 3

Okay this comment here is just wrong seriously. I mean if the person is willing does it still gives us some consolation that what these people are doing is okay? Hey someone is commiting suicide… WILLINGLY.

Don’t stop him? Not a chance. Its not to the extreme of life and death but still… You still gotta stop it.

Okay people enough reasons…

Let me boil and simmer it down for you.

NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCE. WHETHER THE GIRL WANTS TO BE TOUCHED, WHETHER SHE ENJOYS IT, WHETHER ITS AT A COUNTDOWN PARTY OR CLUB. STANDING THERE AND LOOKING (WORSE VIDEOING) IS UNACCEPTABLE.

PLEASE PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT WHEN YOU SEE SOMEONE BEING HUMILIATED IN PUBLIC, TAKE A STEP FORWARD AND STOP IT. DON’T JUST STAND THERE AND WATCH.

NUMBER 2

I was wonder why I didn’t see anything in the papers at all? Not even a forum article.. (please correct me if i am wrong) I would love to read it.

Here is what i found online by ST.

Molested at countdown party
ONLOOKERS watched but no one came to her rescue.
On New Year's Eve, four men were captured on camera groping a young woman at the Sentosa Siloso Beach countdown party.
The girl appeared to be intoxicated and was struggling to break free.
The video quickly made its way onto the Internet, triggering a heated debate among Netizens.
In less than a day, it gathered more than 30,000 views.
Find out what both men and women have to say about the incident.

http://www.straitstimes.com/Breaking+News/Singapore/Story/STIStory_473561.html

That was it.

I mean what?! No views on it by the columist at all? Hello?

I am too tired to blog or even write an article properly but… I mean something has to be done. So they did post a three part video and here it is.

I REMOVED THEM CUS THEY WERE A PAIN IN THE ASS... CHECK RAZOR TV IF YOU WANNA WATCH THEM ;)

Watch the videos? What do you think about the views?

I made a very long rant.

But what do you think? Should you at least have helped the girl? I mean there isn’t any need to beat the men up. At least save her…

Wow i have so many thoughts now…

Even if it just was a video and i didn't know what happened... I mean how much circumstance can there be? I don't know...

Why just why didn't anyone stop her? Will you? At least shout above all the music? Why did so many people video tape it down? Where is our humility?

blogskin will be up soon…

All messed up wolf

SIGNING OFF.

NIGHTS

Some parts of life

2009-12-05T13:12:00.002+08:00

You know A levels just ended... I've been wanting to update my online profile for so so long but i guess i can't find the time to... I mean with your brothers hogging the computer most of the time and not being able to use it at night i mean... go figure...

Let me rant a little bit about my life first... FIrst having ending A level I ain't got no cash... Ta-da i gotta look for a job says mum and i mean what in the world... Why no allowance... b'cos she raise it during the a level period... fine... i say...
Shoot too many dots...

I really don't know why i'm blogging about anything right now because all my thoughts are just jumbled up in my head...

I mean.... you'll see...

Title one: It's too late to apologise

Let me tell you this (why does the enter key give me two line spacings instead of one???)

Anyway back to the topic, I find that after such a long time of saying sorry now and again to the people I love, the friends I know and the people that care for me. It has officially lost its meaning. I cannot count how many times i've said sorry this month and its only the fifth and i guess i gotta say sorry to Si because I guess I won't be going to his Birthday party. Nuff said.

To all my peep out there who are for some odd reason checking out my supposedly dead blog, let me give you one lesson to take away today.

It is always too late to apologise.

Where has all the sincerity gone when you've done something wrong, where has it dissapeared to? Has it all condensed into something called "I'm Sorry, please forgive me"

I mean has our world become so fast paced that these words have become such a convenient thing to say? Look im not talking about saying sorry over just a spilled cup of jo, im talking about saying sorry everytime you are late, saying sorry everytime you forgot something and saying sorry for the thing you've said or done.

Its not just that one sorry that makes the word seem meaningless (other than the fact that its something for you to break that silence let alone the fact that you can't find anything else to say) its all the sorry-ies you add up together in the week that your fingers and toes can't even count.

Believe me go add them up consciously and tell me how many sorry-ies have come your way or outta your mouth, you'll be amazed. Either that or i'm a very problematic wolf.

I challenge you today to do this. I will do it too.

Please, I don't want the words I'm sorry to lose meaning in this world of ours, I want it to be sincere and not something convenient.

It is always too late to apologise, don't give yourself the opportunity to say sorry. Don't or else one day, sorry might just be the thing no one ever wants to hear ever again.

Title Two: Ties that bind

When it comes to relationships i can only thing of one thing a spider's web. Why? Well it is because of the complexity of it and the magic within it because how can something so fine so complex be able to stand and hold up, in a way very majestic.

I can only thing of one reason. A miracle of nature.

That is what it is.

I can't thing of the many things in my life today that doesn't seem complex to me at all.

How do you ensure all the ties are equally strong? Where is that universal scale of balance in this? All the questions I cannot give you an answer today its just that it seems that the image of the world is a facade hiding life's most deepest questions.

There is no theory on how to raise a family there are only tips, there is no secret formula to a healthy relationship only touching stories. I tell you that in all in life the most complex thing is our relationship with the people we don't really know, to the people we know, to the people we really know and most importantly and the most close to us, the people we love.

We can't understand each other fully, sometimes I think we don't really understand each other at all. As for me, I'm a wolf, as in I am me. The people I love come first. The people I care for come first. I want them all to be happy.

A friend, A wolf, Donovan.

Just a short

2009-11-01T23:55:00.003+08:00

Well well its been how many days?

I lost count...

Next week monday its the paper Miracle please come to me...

Enough about school i think for once we all want to find out the truth about certain things so let me do a little myth busting today :D

Especially on the topic of fast food.

I was eating Macdonalds with Kitty just the other day. Guess what... We didn't feel too well. How many times has anyone noticed the feeling after eating a meal from mac or some other joint. Well it sucks, your tummy feels horrid and you just wanna sit there and well PLONK!

Okay for real. All the facts are hidden out there and it took quite a bit of digging to get these bite sized morsels out for our chewing pleasure.

OH NO THE MACDONALD MAN GOT ME...

WATCH THIS SPACE. Coming to you with the facts and the myths as soon as i pull that wig off.

Over the few days...

2009-10-18T14:58:00.002+08:00

(Cool type writer sounds)

25 - 15 October 2008 - Farewell Assembly

Had a fun time relaxing and chilling that day :D Beyond that it was pretty much unproductive...

24 - 16 October 2008 - Friday

Did some work... Planned to do loads more on saturday... ATE LOADS ^^

23 - 17 October 2008 - Saturday

Kitty came over for lunch and stayed for dinner :D

Shoot did 6 chapters of physics shouldn't have stayed and watch cars... hmm then again i enjoyed my time with kitty and mommy and my brothers :D

22 - 18 October 2008 - Sunday (TODAY)

Blogging now woke up loads late today... Now its just me and the computer first loading pictures watching OMG cruelty to animals... those videos... Doing math later... Kitty's sick today *hugs* shall visit her in the evening to send her a get well soon package and a going back to school package :D Love you so much dear. I'll be working hard today! Hope D link stays up

okay better hurry so i can capitalise on the quiet house. Natty's SLEEPING XD haha

Howls from a Wolf! Cheer me on please? :) Heck i need loads of it.

Final Countdown

2009-10-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

26

This post will be the start of a series, hope you don't mind me ranting and I really hope this gives my readers ((what ever is left of them) (Hi Kitty! :D)) something to look forward too. Because I've been lazy mainly to blog and well i think this is something well worth blogging about :)

Last official day of school today! Like cheer cheer clap clap for all the SA students!

Here's the low down on this post. JC basically is one of the hardest things anyone should ever be put through. Now i give you an almost unimaginable situation. I'm gonna update everyone who reads my blog, what i'll be doing over the next 26 days and further than that till the A levels come to an end.

The situation... (cool typewriter sound effects)

9th Nov

H2 Geography Paper 1 (Physical Geog)

The Target...

B/A

The real deal...

Look my first paper is gonna be in 26 days time. Lets see how well i've been doing for JC.

Lets see... I look down at my toes and i see... Naught.

U for GEOG

U for MATH

U for PHY

U for CHEM

E for GP

*gulps* DOOOOOOM

NOT

Least i don't believe that.

If you want to read a miracle. (or if you just wanna see my journey in this tough time)

Read my blog everyday :D I'll show you something amazing.

You ready? I'm gonna bring it.

Finally shouting out to Kitty! Thank you for being there for me

To my friends... All the high hopes on me even though we ain't in touch too much. Well let me show you high grades then ^^

Cheer me on in this race all! Going all out for the big A ;) Good luck to everyone!!!

Nights all ^^

Not exactly

2009-06-21T17:34:00.002+08:00

Gosh gosh gosh got a chance to use the internet again! Thank you Kitty!!! She's out with Bell, Xin Yun and Jialin for a lil get together and she sweetly brought me her mac to use ^^ Charger had to be left at home cus it was heavy ><>

Gosh I miss miss miss using the computer and with all the things im doing now its just a wee bit busy XD

Missing all my friends and gotta get in touch again via MSN i know Li En has been trying to get me some way or another I hope I didn't like hurt your feelings or anything by not replying :S

Gotta super study hard all!

I WANNA HIT HOMERUN!

Okay nothing much for me to rant about don't really know what to blog about really... I just want my internet and a nice nice computer/laptop :X

Gosh... Finally

2009-06-11T14:45:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time... I had the internet... Now the dumb modem or maybe that slow slow computer of mine... ah you know... Living without the internet quite irritating, least i get to do some work!!!

O well i still do hate no having the internet XD

Sorry for being MIA for so long again... please please buy me a new computer and load me up with a good internet connection and i assure you more posts to come.

In NYP now, waiting for Kitty's class to start XD Thats why I can use the computer (and the internet)

Wait for it.... HOWLS!!!

Okay lets see... so much has happened over the past few... Ethan's Birthday was a hit though it was quite tiring that weekend but I hope Ethan had a blast! Lots of work to do now and gotta really catch up with work ASAP

Now whats new now a days? Well lets just say I WANNA BLOG! I've got so much shouts I wanna say and I got loads to rave about!

I hope kitty's alright >< She got burnt in the sun and being a good wolf to her, wolfiie offered to hold the umbrella being an even better kitty to me she said she didn't want me out in the sun sweating so i walked away... (she got herself a sunburn :S)

During that whole drawing session in the sun HAM HAM (Kitty's Hamster) got like heated up in the sun so we had to bring it into the emergency room asap (the bench beside the koi pond and get it some shade and shelter. So there I sat seeing kitty straining her poor eyes in the sun and nursing poor HAM HAM back to tip top condition. Least HAM HAM's alright, Kitty's having a headache kinda *hugs kitty* Yep, she's much much better now XD

Well we're both blogging side by side sooooo Hmm srrrryyyy for being away I miss my old long cool thinking posts! I wanna get my INTERNET ><

okay enough ranting I wanna do other stuff while i still get to use the computer ^^

Till the next time I get to use the internet

*Howls* From the Howling Wolf

What awesomeness

2009-05-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

Can't say the day started off extremely awesome :S But what the heck... As long as the day is awesome who cares what side of the bed you woke up to!

Anyway headed to meet kitty in the morning first then proceeded for breakfast XD Followed by the kids at Students care service :) Was so super messy and "luan" today for the oddest of reasons... So many kiddies weren't there today but it was just I don't know... Different today?

After that headed down to SPCA and spent the whole afternoon there XD It was just ultra super amazing cus so many things happened!!! Let me show you a gal called Jam ;) She's a real nice gal hee hee

After spending so so super long time there till SPCA closed we were talking to this nice dude who really loved all the dogs there XD There was this one dog IDA who was licking him all over =D

Then as we made our way to the bus stop we were offered a lift to town by a couple and just talked about dogs and pets like throughout the whole ride (what a lucky day for us huh?)

After that wandered around taka to get something from ART FRIEND and headed off to Yishun for a movie and then a nice long dinner with Kitty :D

Seems that couldn't contact kitty once I got home :(

Really hope she has magically peacefully fallen asleep :$

Night everyone... Jia you for exams!!! Will blog more when the computer gets better or I change it myself ><

Donovan, A howling Wolf

HaVing an Apple

2009-05-15T12:50:00.003+08:00

Muhaha having an apple today makes me feeeeel so erm.... not too bored... =/

class ended like super major-ly early today :D (Something to smile about?) (T,T) NO! Haha its been well boring... wanted to do some work but i decided to distract myself with my distracting class mates XD

O well Kitty loaned me her Apple (MacBook Pro) today :D Thank you so super much!!! Forgot to take the heavy charger from her though T.T batts dying :(

Okay today im using too many smilies today haha

Plus two boards and missing from the ROSE!!! ARGH!!! (most won't get what i'm talking about but...) I sure hope it will turn out alright. Its Miss Grace right? So i'm sure she'll be gracious enough to let it slide.

Jia you!!! Really super hope your presentation goes well XD

Pictures of me being bored in the canteen (or cafe as we like to call it)

Well i'll be super excited later as i finish the powerpoint ;) Hope batt won't die too super soon :S

Signing off *howls* from the Howling Wolf, Donovan.

Had crazy days

2009-05-12T01:44:00.000+08:00

A few crazy days spent out with Kitty's classmates and all shan't explain much really, :S Too lazy to do so. But it was super fun! Really want to rant about how stupid my computer is... Can't freaking turn it on most of the time. I feel like i've been starting up a big own chainsaw or something. You know the kind you need to pull that lousy string so that it make funny noises and then it starts after a few tries (like a gazillion) ><

Had loads of fun around and about, gotta prepare for BT2 which is round the corner. No more slacking!!! Kitty's working really hard too, she's sleeping now, i'm just waiting for her. Making sure she gets up by calling her. Hope she's not too tired >< Jia you Jia you to everyone out there!!!

-- Wolfiie --

A friend,
A wolf,
Donovan

(I MUST KEEP MYSELF AWAKE) 0.0!!!

In school now

2009-05-07T13:44:00.004+08:00

Gosh, been so ultra long since I last posted stuff and even edited my blog post. But nothing is stopping me from blogging of sorts. I personally love blogging just that i need a nice quiet place and time to get my thoughts running.

Quite a rocky year for me, if not for the fact I have Key to support me all this way :D Thank you!!! (Woke up past the calling time again :( Sorry) Well she must be rushing her assignment now *stares at feet* need to get my legs to wake me up proper next time. Hope it isn't such a crazy mad rush for you ultra super cool presentation!!! XD I really really wanna see it soon. (more important... See you soon :$)

Plus I'm involved in the craziness of the National Weather Study Project again! (NWSP as some of you might remember) This time going into the finals =P Its gonna be hectic!!! Confirmation of the final posting will be out on Monday wish me luck!!!

Plus I'll be changing my blog skin soon and putting some pictures when I can (since I'm in the school and i don't really feel like putting pictures afraid that somebody might see them and all that) (that sure was a mouthful :X)

O yeah ;) one picture I can put in!

Tree house escapades!! (shoot >< ugly smile by wolfiie :X)

Thank you so much dear! Love you!

Howling out of school now, the WoLF

2009-01-30T18:00:00.000+08:00

DID YOU KNOW? NEAR MY BLOCK THERE'S A HUGE JOGGING TRACK?

OKAY NOT REALLY THAT HUGE BUT *SHRUGS*

BUT AT LEAST THERES A JOGGING TRACK!

DID YOU ALSO KNOW THAT MY SECONDARY SCHOOL HAS A GARDEN NAMED AFTER IT?

WELL NOT REALLY...

BUT ITS CALLED YISHUN TOWN GARDEN! ITS ACROSS FROM THE BUS INTERCHANGE!

PLUS PLUS THERE'S THIS REALLY REALLY WINDY PLACE IN YISHUN NEAR THE NEIGHBORHOOD PARK

OKAY... ONLY WINDY SOMETIMES...

BUT ITS NEAR CHONG FU PRIMARY SCHOOL! I KNOW A COUPLE OF PEOPLE WHO STUDIED THERE

Haha it seems so random but of course everything i blog has a purpose!

The end of the year?

2008-12-30T23:47:00.001+08:00

Personally, the year has been a great year of FIRSTS.

First time in college.

First time being saved.

First step in Eternity.

Then why? Tell me why? At this point in time, I feel that my friends, the one I love… Why? Do I feel, why do they feel this way?

Here’s a Song from a movie. The Quest for Camelot.

I Stand Alone

I know the sound of each rock and stone
And I embrace what others fear
You are not to roam in this forgotten place
Just the likes of me are welcome here
Everything breathes
And I know each breath
For me it means life
For others it's death
It's perfectly balanced
Perfectly planned
More than enough for this man

Like every tree stands on it's own
Reaching for the sky
I stand alone
I share my world
With no one else
All by myself
I stand alone

I've seen your world with these very eyes
Don't come any closer
Don't even try
I've felt all the pain
And heard all the lies
In my world there's no compromise

Like every tree stands on it's own
Reaching for the sky
I stand alone
I share my world
With no one else
All by myself
I stand alone

All by myself I stand alone
All by myself I stand alone
All by~ myself I~ stand alone

DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU STAND ALONE?

I thought I was alone… No, the song shows the fake heart we like to believe.

Let me change the lyrics…

The Chorus…

Does every tree stand on its own?
Reaching out so high
It’s not alone
I share my world
With Everyone
All together
We’re not alone

No, we’re not alone. The tree was never alone. It had the support of the earth, the breath in the air, the sound of the birds, the light of the sun. Neither are we alone.

I… I am not alone. Support, breath, sound, light. I have it, I know. However, this wolf is lacking in a major support, a great breath, a sweet sound, a comforting light that needs time away from this wolf’s tree. Its hard, its painful, I want back… Hope, Trust, Faith, Love.

“LOVE NEVER ENDS”

Sometimes we need to take a step back, to make a giant leap forward. Testimonies without tests are just “imonies”

Now one more song, I give, I remember. A book I keep, memories. From that moment on. Eternal, Forever, Inevitable.

To put the song in a code, without a key, you won’t get it.

Thank you Bryan White.

Now I bid Good Night.

HEROES and a New Year

2008-12-20T02:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes whenever you get the urge to blog about something you get interrupted and then when you finally get your time, the mood disappears. Not much mood but I told myself, I gotta blog.

Gosh, there are just just just so many things to blog about. I came back from camp changed. At least more aware of what inner demons lurked in me. So let me show you how much crap (as in the photos of me being crappy) I went through in camp.

Yes I am the One

Gosh, Wolf being Grumpy

Pose with the Macho Reindeer =P

JCNEA =)

Well Heroes camp were filled with heroes (Duh)

There was the man who trusted God and parted the Red Sea,

Another who fought off the Goliath,

An old man that had to give up his only Son

A Queen that had to face the rules in the Kingdom

A baddie turned Goodie ;)

These were the five heroes of the Camp, no Superman, Batman, whatever man in Singapore Sports School, just an army, of the unqualified, undeserving…

Take a look here,

Yeah, I think this was super cool, gosh there is just so much I can blog about camp but let me summarise it quickly.

Day 1: I asked for reassurance

Day 2: I asked for insight into my Relationships

Day 3: I asked for forgiveness and help

There is so much more I want to show, about the toast for change and many more. Videos are real hard to find, but I was glad Jon Tay did the TFC

In this world, we all have many inner demons, I think I got the most stupidest Shepherd or something, to unintentionally kick me down the stairs (not literally) when I just got back into church after my absence. He talked sense into me and let me decide what path I should take, he may have even gave up on me at that point in time.

I tell you JT he made me realise so much more, I’m not going to let God, not going to let JT, nor myself down.

16 years hiding behind the words I say, no more.

I have a life time of using those words to speak the truth and the light that God has bestowed and equipped upon me. Words are great to hear, intention a source of comfort, but action is a true assurance that the what needs to be done is done. Jesus said, Jesus thought, most importantly Jesus did. I stopped short of the last step, now its time to climb that step.

For the future, I pray for more enlightening posts, I want to use my words to infect lives. (in a good way)

Gosh there is so much more I can say. I leave my readers by saying, I can’t wait for the 23rd. I can’t ;)

So much to say, so much to do, so little time.

Howlings from a Wolf, From a Friend, From Donovan.

So many quizzes and blog tags!

2008-12-01T21:20:00.001+08:00

Starting from hmm lets see 16 days ago =X

Tagged by Li En (I think I’ve got three)

RULES:
#1: List 10 weird habits/things/little known facts about yourself
#2: Tag 10 People
#3: The people who are tagged must do both #1 and #2
#4: No Tagging back!

Hmm ten weird habits/things/little known facts …

NUMBER 1 –> Howls at the moon *howls*

NUMBER 2 –> Likes to talk about random things

NUMBER 3 –> Cuts his nails only on a full Moon

NUMBER 4 –> Likes to create weird codes that even he can’t read

NUMBER 5 –> Tends to talk to himself sometimes

NUMBER 6 –> Claims to be a shape shifting Wolf

NUMBER 7 –> Likes to look out for weird facts like “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.” uses every letter in the alphabet?

NUMBER 8 –> Hasn’t been to church for a month =(

NUMBER 9 –> Loves to hug animals like kitty cats!

NUMBER 10 –> Hates to tag other people =P

TAGged and Passed onto!

- No One =P Haven’t been in contact with people so… XD Next time cheerio!

Survey Time!

1) Do You have any Sercets?

>>> *cough cough* Who doesn’t?

2) Would you fall in Love with a boy/girl younger than you?

>>> Age holds no bounds to love ;)

3) How Long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?

>>> Forever and ever

4) What would you do with a billion Dollars?

>>> Spend some, shares some, donates some, invest some…

5) Would you fall in love with your best Friend?

>>> Hmmm I first must figure out who my best friend is =X

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

>>> Loving someone XD

7) What best describes the person that tagged you?

>>> Hmm… Tough… Well I’d say Pepper’s really special =)

8) If the person you secretly like is already attached what will you do?

>>> Well… I won’t like a person who is attached ;)

9) Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

>>> Yes yes! *secret*

10) What makes you sad?

>>> Losing my friends =(

11) How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

>>> Having a great life with the one I love the most =)

12) Who are the most important people in your life?

>>> My family, my family in Christ, the people I LOVE

13) What is regarded as the most important thing in your life?

>>> My relationships

14) Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

>>> Married to a loving wife because money is just a number while love is priceless

15) What is your favourite colour?

>>> Hmm tough… The colour of the night ;)

16) If you’re attached but feel you like someone else what will you do?

>>> That will NEVER happen ;)

17) Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing a person might have done?

>>> Forgiveness is boundless =) Love keeps no record of wrongs

18) What do you want to tell the person you like?

>>> *whispers whispers* ;)

19) If your boy/girlfriend said something to you about his/her ex, and you can’t accept it how would you react?

>>> Why can’t I accept it? We all gotta be understanding =)

20) Do you believe in true love?

>>> Yes I do =) Though we gotta define true love :$

One more Tag to do!!!

[1] The person who tagged you is?

Kelita Yeo Kitty kitty!!!

[2] Your relationship with him/her?

Kitty and Wolfie XD

[3] Five impressions of him/her?

Hyper!!! Fun!! Caring! Thoughtful and honest

[4] The most memorable thing he/she has done for you?

Tough one… I can’t decide!!!

[5] The most memorable thing he/she has said to you?

“Inevitable”

[6] If he/she becomes your lover, you will?

*whispers*

[7] If he/she become your lover, things he/she would have to improve on will be?

*whispers*

[8] If he/she become your enemy, you will?

I’ll… I’ll go ballistic!

[9] If he/she dies, you will?

*sobs sobs* *mutters some magic*

[10] What do you want to tell him/her now?

Take care! I know you’re working now!!

[11] Your overall impression of him/her?

Great funtastic person!!

[12] How do you think people around you will feel?

Hmm… If they don’t know me… intimidated?

[13] The characters that you love about yourself is?

Optimistic and caring

[14] On the contrary… the characters that you hate about yourself are?

Laziness =/

[15] The most ideal person you want to be is?

Jesus! keep the personality of the wolf of course ;)

[16] For the people that care for you and like you say something to them…

Thanks for everything!!! Love ya guys and gals XD

[17] Pass this quiz to 10 people you wish to know how they feel about you

Erm erm… whoever reads this post =P

[18 through to 39] I guess I can’t do those question can i?

Gosh I’m lazy =X

Can we do More?

2008-11-17T22:07:00.001+08:00

Its been a long long time since I've last blogged. MSN still down and out and house is still under renovation, so technically The Wolf is still stuck at home =/ Anyway personally, I love the colour of my room so allow me to show off a bit XD Don’t get GREEN with envy (pun not intended)

So I’ve got a green room now I guess =)

Alright enough about boring me, back to the post title. Can we do More?

I’ve always stared in amazement when I watch shows where they well give away free stuff to audience members especially talks shows, just to name a few, Oprah, Ellen, Rachael Ray… and the likes. Plus it is really comforting to see that some need families in the USA get major help from an all time favourite show of mine, EXTREME MAKEOVER: HOME EDITION

Besides they do need the help right? Plus I’ve always fantasised that my home could one day be renovated free of charge, no effort put in and upgraded with the latest high tech equipment. XD Gosh I am dreaming…

Well if you do ever catch EXTREME MAKEOVER: HOME EDITION, you’ll know what I mean.

Here’s HMHE

Amazing isn’t it? Building a home in 7 days, from tearing it down to building it up and retro-fitting it with all that the equipment gosh… It truly is an amazing sight.

WAKE UP

These two words screamed in my head tonight. I couldn’t take it any more after watching that show today…

It was heart wrenching…

I don’t know if you felt it but the episode I watched today was about that girl if you have the time to scroll to 4:32

She took care of the home since the age of 5-6, cooked for her mom and sorts… I cannot describe how I felt when I watched that show. It just felt so painful to think that the “miserable” life I thought I lived in was even the least bit miserable. Sometimes I would blame God to why should this happen to me, there was once I wished I had lived in a better better world.

That is just nonsense… What much more can I dare ask for? I have a family, I have people who love me, I’ve got my friends, I’ve got all I could ever ask for…

But you know… that wasn’t thing I was most hurt and most troubled about… Why can’t we do more? They renovation was a mere paint over and cleaning and addition of new furniture making things more livable. But… What’s wrong with Singapore??? What’s the problem?

Its great to have charities, its great to help lives but… but there’s just so much more that we are able to do! So much more! Its just this burden that is placed, whenever I see it… I can’t help but cry when I watched the show today, I can’t help but feel… Something stirring inside… Making a difference! WHERE? HOW? WHEN?

Gosh… I think this is more of a RANT than anything else. But I do hope the contrast between the video show you something…

*ouch*

The wolf is howling at the waning moon. The Wolf is howling.

If you had a bad day?

2008-11-12T22:39:00.001+08:00

Ever had a day where… You felt that you got off on the wrong side of the bed?

I mean wait… What’s up with that expression anyway? Wrong side of the bed pfft… All of us probably believe there isn’t a wrong side to begin with until…

Take me for example today the twelve

O wait pause! I just realised I forgot to tag Jas…. (1 minute later) Done!!!

Anyway…

It started off with a terrible day, yucks =( Woke up and didn’t want to get out of bed particularly cus someone wasn’t in Singapore *boo hoo* plus apparently I was feeling extra extra heavy, like as if I was wearing lead boots. Didn’t take breakfast and instead snacked on one of my chocolate granola bars =X

Then I slacked at home reading DC (Detective Conan) and waited for the sun to settle… Like 2pm and silly me for thinking that the sun had soften its burning gaze. It was hot like (insert hot word here)!!! Had to run an errand for my house… Get the paint cans from the hardware store at 400++ But again I was having my bad grumpy day and well got irritated at my mom

Though she has been a lil grumpy and feisty the past few (WEEKS)

Anyway I slogged back with the paint cans and well… Torture didn’t end there. Called mum to tell her I’m back then she asked me what I was doing… I said computer doing my stuff… then she well got all demanding and asked me to hmm paint my bro’s room. I was like i got holiday day homework… (bunch of dumb excuses… Though i do have hol hw) ANyway I was just grumpy and didn’t want to give in. I did the worst thing, cus i quote she said “Good then, I don’t want to see you on the computer when I get back.”

But guess what… My reply was… “I’ll be on the computer” then she went “WHAT!” again guess what… I replied the exact same thing “I’ll be on the computer” *bangs head on the keyboard* How stupid of me =(

Then well i stopped the conversation with an angry mood and my day became worse…

Well ready for more? Because that just the afternoon…

After that i slacked and well painted the house for about an hour or two. Not out of guilt but… well it was the right thing to do. Then it rained like crazy XD Boo Hoo always rains at the wrong times… ARGH!!! Anyway I had to get dinner so met my mom at Northpoint and guess what… While I was waiting for the bus… I leaned on a wet pillar =,= Now thats bad…

In the end I went to handi-fix and slogged a whole can of paint back which weighed a ton! While my mom went to buy dinner… Argued a little about what I wanted to eat because of the detour she had to make, in the end told her to get me chicken rice in yet another grumpy manner =(

O yeah on my way back while waiting for the bus, I kicked the paint can =.= (ouch)

SO THAT CONCLUDES ME DAY SO FAR

How about yours? Have you ever had a bad day?

Ever had a Bad Hair day?

Ever felt as if you were the only one that sad in this world today?

What about the times you felt no one cared for you?

Yeah… We all had those days… Guess what my mom just well kinda had an accident in the balcony and… erm she broke her umbrella so she freaking pissed.

But you know something?

A tornado can come running through our houses

Just like this one,

Or maybe we are just stuck in an insanely long queue

But you know something? It doesn’t give us any right to be the king of the world!

We shouldn’t be angry at everyone… Being an asshole… Spoiling everyone’s day because you were not having a good day to begin with…

So please I’m begging anyone to take head to my words, we all get irritated and frustrated with a bad day! We all complain and say, I quote “How could this happen to me?”

But hey think of it this way… You are at the beach, the sky is clear, the sun is up, the beach is all to yourself and your friends, food smell great over by the barbeque and you can hear the sounds of the waves crashing onto the shore. Then a bird flies by and decides it needs to relieve itself… *bombs away* *plonk* it hits you (urgh)

You become a monster to everyone, you bitch about how bad the day is going to be. But why? The food still smells good, your friends are still there, the skies are still clear but but we just couldn’t think about that big surprise the birdy dropped in.

In each day, we all have our fair share of bird poo… Parents will nag, the bus turns up late, your friends will start complaining, your favourite TV show is cancelled, people turn up late for the ever important meeting… Not forgetting the LINES… Deadlines, an obvious damaged hair line, long queue lines, an irritating person on the phone line… the ever-elusive bottom lines… Do i need to say more?

But I ask of all of you, do we let this spoil our day? Do we let all these things pull us down? If we do then… This will happen…

One sad person… One angry person…

Whole bunch of angry people…

OR if we gave each day a chance, we look on the brighter side of things allow our optimistic side out, and shower ourselves with the wonderful things in life. FOCUS on the good, not just in life but also in people. Give the day, give the people around you a chance. Life will be so much better. I end this post with a video =) Happy People. Bleach Ending (ep 39-51)

So please give your day a chance =)

Tired… Dead Beat

2008-11-08T23:15:00.001+08:00

Gosh I am tired… A day of cleaning the house and well =/ Its all work and no fun today. Didn’t head down for service =( Boo Hoo I’m sad about that, then again the stuff I wanted to blog about yesterday and today are all messed up in the head of mine.

Only thing now that kinda stuck in my mind now is 1 Corinthians 13

Guess thats all and yeah MSN still messed up =,= Can’t uninstall the previous version therefore I can’t install the new one but problem is… I can’t even find where the previous version ended up =/

Anyway, Li En feeling really down now =( Hope someone can cheer her up =( Not me though, so long didn’t talk to her then just now chat for a bit phone died =.= *Sigh* Hope she finds something happy to smile about =D

Hope maybe I use this post ask her to smile she’ll smile =)

I think I’m heading off to bed, got to finish something by tomorrow morning ;)

I must! Well good night everyone!

Better posts next time!

Short post XD

2008-11-07T14:25:00.001+08:00

What’s with the XD, O well go figure =/

Anyway I change a couple of songs in my blog which a certain someone will find familiar =P

O yeah there’s this video which I think its really really CUTE! XD

Heroes Camp Wooo Hooo!

Heroes Camp (Registration FAQ & CG TVC Competition) from Y-Hope TV on Vimeo.

Anyway Going out now, heading to meet JT at TP (Thompson Plaza not Tam-PINEs =P)

Have to go look see at lights too so… haha O well, cya people!!!

New Skin XD

2008-11-07T11:30:00.001+08:00

Internet giving me some problems Messenger is whack seriously… Whack =X Can’t download the new messenger for some odd reason, well… I know the problem just don’t know how to solve it yet.

Anyway… New skin! Hope you like it ^^ Credits to Kitty for choosing the Colour =D

Not much to blog about other than the fact that house is under renovation and well, this wolf is kind of stuck at home at the moment XD Gosh, just slacked around the television just now while waiting for the internet to reboot. Tom Cruise has been making movies for 25 years and personally, every single one of his movies i watched, I enjoyed it thoroughly XD

I think I’ve just been biased towards a certain actor! =X

Anyway, more about this skin… Well to me, the montage is just a simple one and it really just speaks about the life of the wolf. It bears some significance to me, so I do hope, I keep updating the montage (THE BLOG) and I really want to give insight to people about life and its happenings. Gosh… I want inspiration!!!!

All my peeps out there! I want to see ALL of you around the December holidays so please please please keep in touch!

SMILES all around from the wolf =)

-Donovan-

Such a long time

2008-11-01T23:07:00.001+08:00

Haha its been an incredibly long time since i've posted a blog post XD

But hey hey hey its been really really happening the past month =) Well i guess first off I must cheer for me YAY! Promoted to J2! Better start working hard during the holidays exams starting on the first or second week =/

That reminds me a certain friend of mine =.= Lied to me about not being able to promote... Hmmm Pepper? Li En!!!! =P

Cheer for me again! PW is OVER! Yes! Let me tell you how much believing get you far. I tell you it really is apt that I was at service listening to Pastor Shirley Preach today ^^

Quote: "When you believe in someone, You will be patient"

How true is that? I think it really is true, just yesterday there was this particular person who wanted to give up on himself. This wolf however didn't give up, I believed in him, I knew it was possible for him to speak up and Chin Boon did speak up yes? Yes he did! *pats on the back* I hope you're really happy that its all over, I know I am!

Believing in your friends is great =) It really is the best way to push them on, because when you believe you'll be patient and patience really get you far!

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will,
You will when you believe

Sounds familiar? =) I've been singing (well humming) this song for the whole day, gosh its super fun XD

Its been an up down roller coaster ride for me, guess that my chain has been tightened a little bit and that I've been bitten =/

I think my mind wandered off and I forgot what else I wanted to blog about =( I want to post nice nice long long big big blog posts but....

O there's sth I want to do ^^ Let me go see if its published yet...

Heroes Camp Launch Publicity from Y-Hope TV on Vimeo.

Well this wasn't the video I was looking for but... I'll keep interested people updated ^^ SMILE!

See you all, I pray i post a better post the next time *waves* Bye bye

What Star?

2008-10-13T23:46:00.000+08:00

Gosh... Its been so so so long since I've last blogged. I guess you can contribute it to my laziness =(

I don't want to back track to previous days specifically but I have been having a real hectic past week due to PW. Well it wasn't really hectic more of... boring!

All and all this is the first post of the month of October for me. Don't want my blog to be dead ^^ Plus you know me, I prefer to blog about something like a topic instead of my day in itself.

Well today was err tired. Cough medication made me sleep *yawns* now I can't really sleep =X After waking up... O in the morning I saw a road argument while waiting for the bus XD wait... I think it was yesterday =X Anyway the Honda driver was turning out of the carpark and then the Toyota driver Horned really loudly as apparently the Honda driver wasn't paying attention. Then guess what he fingered the Honda driver! Quite shocking for me. Then they drove side by side and the Toyota driver fingered him again before driving off LOL!

Okay enough crap =X

A blog post about a star =) Not super star

We all look up into the sky each night, sometimes wondering what is out there. What it is like to be out there. High above the clouds as stars in the sky. What if I told you that each and everyone of us have been allocated a star in the sky? Wouldn't that be great? Our very own star? Wow

Our star burns in each of us. They burn in outer space. But what kind of star are you?

When we first embark on any journey, we are just like a star first born.

Stars when first born are nothing. They come from nothing but gas and as it comes together and as more matter is absorbed a star is born burning brightly! A wild hot star.

Its the same with us, we first start on something with nothing in our midst. But as we think and go along with it, we acquire, we absorb knowledge. We get drive and we burn ever so brightly and our passion will exceed even the most experienced of people.

We're all so bright we burn through the night! I think most of us would like to burn bright always but that's not the case most of the time. Sometimes we get too full of ourselves and we think we're so good but in fact we are not.

Just like a red giant

Yes the name sound menacing but in fact red giants aren't so hot. Burning and burning out.

Then at other times, we don't do anything. We hide in fear, we succumb to pressure. It hard in time of trouble but what is stopping us from doing the things we want to do? I'm not sure about you but I know that there's something going on with a White Dwarf.

Yes a Dwarf star, a faint star struggling, no more fuel left in it. No drive at all =(

I think i'll end my post here. I really wished I had more inspiration these days. My brain is getting messed out there and here and everywhere...

So maybe this post may not be clear but ask yourself... What star do you want to be?

What star do you want to see?

My Wish

2008-09-28T14:56:00.001+08:00

I have been thinking about so much lately...

Didn't want to blog because whenever I think about it, It just give me so much of a headache. Promo's are over and the hope of promoting... I'm not sure.... But I do WISH to promote.

Enough said.... Let me tell you about a wish...

What happens if one day, you are granted a wish. Just ONE wish for ONE person. What would you wish for?

Don't go cheating and say you want more wishes...

What would you wish for?

What if i explained to you, that in that one wish, you had to take it away from someone else. If you wished for a million dollars, someone else out there would lose a million. If you wished for a fantastic relationship with a guy/gal you really like then someone's relationship would crumble and fall. If you wished for someone to live, then someone must die.

Would you be willing to make that wish?

In this world, so many people are making such wishes. We all want things to be better for ourselves before we think about others. There are so many cases in which I can mention, but no, I'll let you think about it yourself.

The people around me, they are so important to me, but this world, we are thought to survive first before we even can have the capabilities to help someone else. I began to wonder if that is indeed true? I start to ponder if the things im doing now are being appreciated.

I don't want the people around me to suffer like I have suffered, Not in LOVE, no not in that area. Not in FRIENDSHIP, no no no. Not within the FAMILY, that would be terrible.

I don't know where this blog post is going but, I wanted to make a wish... A wish that will be very hard to fulfill....

In the hillside valley,

I came to an alley.

Dark and distorted,

I think i'm being deported.

I've been running away,

from all that I want to say.

All that I want to do,

I plan to do it all for you.

Bringing light to my soul

I still held control.

I dare not let go,

but i said so long ago.

I said I would trust,

no more lust and fuss.

I want to be changed,

but instead i've been chained.

I'm once again in that alley,

the deep dark corner of the valley.

No tears, can come out.

This wolf can hardly shout.

All the pain inside,

I just want to confide.

The chains are holding me down.

I think i'm going to drown.

Today, tomorrow, yesterday.

I don't want to go astray.

It is not that I'm in doubt,

But not sure where to shout.

I need to get out of misery

Make the rest pure history,

one more night I failed,

I think i need to be locked and jailed.

Another poem in the blog today, I'll just smile but... make it go away?

Freaky Friday?

2008-09-19T22:35:00.001+08:00

I don't really know how to describe today =/

Went for morning worship, was late cus of the dumb dumb bus, got stuck in a traffic jam. After that only me, Del and Jing Er was there. We prayed to God for assistance. I know he'll pull me through =) After that was chapel =P sang as loud as i could XD Maybe thats over exaggerating it but I did sing as i tried to catch the tun to the song. About 1/3 of the level didn't come to school today so... =\

We then headed to the computer lab as Danial and the goeg gang went to search for Camp Rock and some stuffs about Jonas, continued to insult him and after that for some odd reason went to look at celebs falling down and doing super unglam stuff XD They were totally laughing their asses off in the com lab!!! Geog was immediately after the short break, personally I hoped Mr G would come but.... Hu was teaching. (His name is Mr Hu) *joke*

Didn't go to the Cafe to meet Mdm Hoh, the geog students were all so lazy to walk there and back. Since Chem class was right about geog class we just stoned in the class room for half an hour before heading to the class venue. Chem was good cus Mr Wang revised through the syllables so (Y)!

Eeek after that was PW haha which was totally slack. THen stayed in the com lab and the Lab Tech got pissed with us for some odd reason and just shut down our computers? Maybe it was becus we were on Warcraft 3 lol! After that went home to change eat my lunch and head to BK to meet Jas to study. Dan joined us later haha then it was so crappy there lol not really but it was quite productive ^^

Chased out of BK by the staff =/ Went home and hmm here I am? Well not quite, went home for dinner ^^ Then slacked around the television for a while ta da! Maybe post later? See ya =)

Topsy Thursday?

2008-09-18T22:22:00.001+08:00

Whoa today like the morning announcement, DP was pointing out the face that at least 1/3 of the cohort didn't attend! I then looked around and guess what? True enough hardly anyone turned up!

Boring that at school today, had GP which was hmm none the less interesting, after that was ME where I did some survey followed by chem which I did my own revision, math was errrr, PW? Purely Revision, free period, finally Mother Tongue another lesson wasted and last but not least physics in the com lab XD

Whoa the day was super uninteresting other than the fact that well... I saw a few interesting things... problem is phone won't connect to the PC and that my MSN messenger ain't working! Dammit!

Can't chat with the people i wanna chat with tonight. Sorry orange... =( Sorry all my other friends. I guess i'll end this short post here. I hope I at least can get some pictures up though =X

P.S. Hope you still high but not too high Li En XD Haha Chill a bit =D Hope you feel better too =)

A day of friendship

2008-09-18T06:33:00.001+08:00

Lets see, its quite early now and I had a nice dinner on Tuesday =) Went out with Mommy and went to eat. Had Pizza and some of my usual favourite appetizers that both my mom and I totally adore. Her birthday is now over =( Wish I could have done something more, alas its all gone.

Prayed for my friends also. Some are not feeling well, others are just down and sad. I want to lift their spirits up! That's one of the things I must do and get my mind settled.

Moving onto Wednesday, school was a short day. Yesterday had math and geography and physics. Nothing exciting happened really in school other than the fact that we were all quite crazy over the football manager thingy =X

Headed out after that. Went to meet Li En. Talked and walked around the whole of TM and CS after that went to wait for her junior and continued talking some more XD It was kinda funny as she tried to hide that blue plastic bag from me. But wow did I get a pleasant surprise after I opened it. I don't know how long you spent on it but I really really appreciate it! It was amazing ^^ I could never make something like that.

It was really tough at the end of the day. Shall not say why, but all I shall say is that, when you're friends with this wolf, you're friends for life. I posted a post about friends on the 4th of September. I posted many posts about friends b4. Something high up there in the list, thats my life.

I dare not post about Wednesday. 17th of September has been reserved three pages in my Diary.

P.S. Orange take loads of care. I don't want you to feel down, instead I ask of you to smile!

17th September 2008 A day of friendship, fun joy, tears and company.

The Wolf is heading to school now.

Quick post =D

2008-09-16T19:04:00.001+08:00

Woke up early today, not sure why, got ready for school then headed off for morning worship =) It was really nice today spent time alone with God. After that headed for assembly and guess what! My class won some discipline award! Like that was super duper unexpected we all had the shocked faces, while we giggled and laughed over our victory.

P.E. was like more tennis XD Arms starting to hurt a lil then went for geog and after that more tennis =O Hot hot hot today XD But I had a fun time just hitting the ball around.

Went to the computer lab with the whole class checking our online football thingy haha after that Physics Mdm Hoh revised a few question. Like whoa I need to rush for promo's lots of stuff still need to practice. But I know I can fit in the time ^^

After that Chin Boon once again irritated Mrs New, hope she can take it =X one more lesson with us XD Then headed for the cafe and met Del, XY and Joane. Talked a while, headed to AMK, crapped even more with my funny accents and I left CG cus I had to rush home!

Rush home to just blog a bit and wish my mom a happy birthday!!!! Woo Hoo! Heading out while baby sitting my brothers. So I'm off to dinner now =) I hit my head on the bus while on my way home =X O well =P

KK maybe blog later =D Bye!!!

Here and Now

2008-09-16T06:10:00.001+08:00

Bahh soooo long sinced i've blogged. Don't know why but it seems i'm getting lazy or something. Hmm Sunday was whack! Went to file all my notes, well I tried to, and it mainly was me looking for my chem notes to revise. Went out and studied along Orchard road with Kel for a while. Then headed home XD

Yesterday wanted to post a blog post but I decided that I should be doing work. I'm really disappointed with myself for not managing to complete the things I am supposed to have completed. I feel so afraid for Promo's! Tsk Tsk I need strength and motivation for this trail. I need to gain back the drive, I wonder what has happened.

Enough! Change is now! Its time to drive through the final barrier and onward to Promo's! I want to rely on God for strength and wisdom, It will take me through! Yesterday was really funny XD Had GP lesson and lets just put it in a way that Chin Boon, was super crappy! He totally went lame with his unorthodox idea and bombarded Mrs New, plus he wrote a "novel" about a very SMALL hamster =.= which had paws the size of a football field.

Then it was more fun during Geography =P I don't know what happened, but one second Mr Lian was talking about vegetation and he accidentally blurted out vegetables and the next moment while we were all giggling and laughing he started laughing too! Guess what? He was reminded about his lunch the day before (SALAD) and about how his kids were watching this show called Vegetales!

Ta Da! Haha!!!

After that the whole class went to check football results in our online fantasy league. =P After more crapping on how bad our players were, it was finally P.E.!

Tennis is really my favourite sport in the world other than football (American) played a one set match with Javier which was well.... incomplete haha I feel so terrible by allowing him to win the first 3 games after my service it ended with me trailing from 1-4 to 5-5 XD

Had fun yesterday! Tons of fun and laughter!

Finally went back home XD Met Mom on the way back (Planned to meet her) then watched TV (finally!) for a while as i ate my dinner. Then it was slack and a lil bit of work! After that i dozed off while sms-ing a few people =X Sorry!!!

Well I'm off to sch! Bye people!

Enriching day

2008-09-13T12:30:00.001+08:00

Rushed to school again =.= I need to learn how to reach sch @ 7

No I wasn't late I just wanna reach sch @ 7 so each morning I can talk to the great people of SACG! ANyway, Friday is one horrid day =X Well not really first was assembly when they showed us a life of a person Joel. He had a terrible car accident at the age of 3 and suffered ever since. He has learned how to accept God's gift to him (Yes he called it such a gift) and his story truly was inspiring.

This is Joel

A short Video

His Story

It took me a while to search for his name because I always thought I heard Jule =X Well Nonetheless it was well worth my time. Please I encourage you to read his story, Christian or not, you'll gain a lot through what he see's life, and what he has to say.

After that assembly was an amazingly long break and then Geography where it was a fantastic Debate session ^^ Great stuff, though it made me a tad bit confused on what was really going on. BUt really great stuff!!!! THen it was breakfast =O with Mdm Hoh! XD Talk about death and the atom smasher =/ Went for chem where I think Mr Yeo did a fantastic Job with his class ^^ Much more driven to study for my other subjects now XD

Then finally PW and the day was preety much concluded b4 chinese in another one half hours time =( PLayed around a bit in school @ the 4th floor then headed for chinese. 5 people turned up and Lao Shi was really crappy and his super off topic teaching kept me awake and when he finally concluded I got the gist of the passage XD Keke

Lazed around in the Cafe after that and had a fun talk with Berakah =) I gotta mingle around more XD After that headed off to Bishan to meet JT Heehee Had Shepherding with him and talked really about a lot of things! Finally went home and lazed around in front of the TV messaging and slept @ about 1.

I'm going to Lug more math and Geog stuffs to service later. So its time for me to bathe and pack up my stuffs!!! Hope you do check out Joel's story please do.

I got sucked dry

2008-09-12T00:01:00.001+08:00

Whoa today was really tiring. Didn't realise the video I wanted to download about SFT didn't complete so i wasted one night, then had to rush to sch because I was late for meeting at the LT =( After that was the monsterous 5 hour massive lesson. GP was first with Mrs New teaching us and I found it hmm good practice I guess, still waiting for Mr Moses Tan to get back from his important duties =/

Then was a torturous combination of CHEM MATH lectures, which I did my own stuff like math/chem questions. After that PW it was okay just that I can't stand it when I need to do my WR and other stuffs to hand in =(

Then finally rest! Went to the library to meddle with the computer a bit and guess what! Like half the class is playing online football manager =O haha thats what happens when a group of guys get super bored. =X

After that was mother tongue, and who knew what got over me, I was just so tired that my eyes kept closing =X But my Chinese teacher was talking about interesting stuff about stress and err things I can't really remember. Then Physics and again something got over me and I got angry? Sigh (not such a good day for me) lucky message Li En asked how she was, stressed she said...

I was nodding, we are all stressed just need to be strong right! =) Went to yishun met with mum and then bus-ed back home. Ate such a nice sumptuous dinner! So nice! Now really tired and the thing I wanted to blog about is postponed to another day =( Sorry This wolf Is a tad bit tired, I'm signing off really soon and heading to bed.

I bid everyone a good night and sweet dreams!

Its a beautiful Day!

2008-09-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Wow today was really really very great day =D

Not really much in school, had a boring math lecture, then got back my geography test, my first essay and well, it was 12/25 =( But at least now I know where to improve on, learn my mistakes and try again! Went to eat food after geog then head to the physics class planning to do some math. However I ended up sleeping. I don't know what got me, but i just rested and listened to music. Then Mdm Hoh came in and asked if there was anything wrong with me =) Politely said no and went to the toilet to freshen up. Glad that our teachers are nice ^^ Even though she's a lil bit tight around the rules. Hope one day we can get her to lighten up =D

Went to the library to try my best to get my Disc into the phone, but they blocked out the music folder =( So i couldn't upload my songs from the sch computer into my phone. Then after that went down to talk to Delvin, Joane, Jing Er for a bit and both Del and JE were pitting each other with bullets stored with bible quotes =X

Anyway, here is where the day gets really fun! Bused with Joane to Eunos and the trained to Tampines to meet up with Li En!!! XD She thought I wore specs =P But its kinda true that most people think I do wear and probably guess Chess Club as my CCA XD (She guessed I was from Choir) Had great time talking to her and walking around Tampines without much of an aim ^^ I shall leave all these happy thoughts into my memories and thank God for blessing me with such a great day with such a wonderful friend =D Went for ice cream and just laughed laughed lots =) I really enjoyed my day, next time we meet! Keke

Went home chugging on no. 39 and I did QT in the bus re-reading the book of Matthew realising that there is a lot there I missed out. Wow, such a wonderful day for me, though i've not done my video thing completely =( Better hustle to it.

Not much I wanna blog about today XD Just really really happy till I cannot describe =D Good night everyone ^^ The Howling Wolf, Donovan.

Its all of these things

2008-09-09T23:55:00.000+08:00

All of these things that really want me to carry on =)

These few days i've been hearing about many things...

Lets first just talk a little bit bout today b4 carrying on to the blog post proper XD Played Softball today =D Had fun pitching, couldn't bat much cus I kinda either skied the ball or i couldn't hit it at all =X Nonetheless I had fun =P

Well next up was geography which was I dunno what to say, at least Mr G made it interesting =P Though it wasn't the usual joke joke lecture =X Actually come to think of it, it was XD Crappy talking about suppliers and wal-mart and what not.

Long break with Javier wanting to do his work but guess what ended up watching his match on the computer. A match in which he didn't touch the ball much =X Funny Gp lesson today... Funny because nothing much was done =X Went through paper 1 techniques... i SOOO need practice for it.

After that well, had to settle some stuff b4 CG but i did entertain Delvin and Kai Yang with ABDC =P And some other weird stories haha! Then after that headed down for CG for a great time and En's shared more about the LC so it was very enlightening. After that I head for dinner and home. Smsed a few of my close friends and rushed home to chat with Li En b4 she went offline. I do hope you feel better tonight after sleep =D

Read Best Friend's blog, realised that you've been going through a tough time. I'm glad u have someone there 4 you. I can't be there for you physically but I'm praying for you tonight.

Praying for specific people whose day wasn't exactly fantastic but I know that it will be better =) Hope that all the people who I care for keep smiling and they will be much better and meet up soon. XD

O,o I guess I'll probably meet Li En tomrrow! XD Anyway good night people =P Just gotta find a bus there that's all haha!

A decent Reminder

2008-09-08T23:18:00.001+08:00

Yes Today, I've been reminded about a lot. A lot of what? Well reminded about many things that I once treasured. I know that these treasures will not fade away, no matter how far it may seem. I thank God for the friends he has given me, the people I am still in contact with, the people I miss, the people that keep me company.

I was always so afraid of not having a decent relationship, but God reminds me that the relationship with him must be strong and when that is strong, I know all my other relationships will fall in place. I've learned that through blessings given to me today and last night. I am so worried, genuinely concerned for my dear friends out there, I'm so glad that you appreciate my kind gesture.

I'm always so afraid I would go overboard, but why I always ask? What's there to fear? That they shun away from my care and concern? No I think what I fear the most is a lost. My deepest darkest fear, losing a friend, a precious gem. No I won't let that control my care for people. I will stretch my hands out wide and hug all of them if I can =D

Thank the people in my life that reminds me in the broken world of the past of this wolf, Friends are there for him, and this wolf will be there for them. No just this wolf, but all their friends too!

Yes I'm geared up for a change! Its 2300 hrs now, but today is really the time to change, a new movement, a new wave, this flow from the wolf will surge through and I hope the trade winds from God will sail me through this and pump me up, step me up, take all the obstacles down! Lets do this SACG! Magic Number 15! A great meeting today guys, glad it spontaneously surfaced. Shall post in CG blog about this =)

Lastly let me end off today, saying that really today is the day I will remember, a reminder from God, I am not alone, never alone with him around, never alone when my friends he has placed are there for me. Neither are you =)

Last reminder in code =X

Thank you to these people today

AD KL SJL T

LEE I A IYE

ELLE BNN

XVI N EG N

IIT LTE E

AN A IH RT

I hope I got most of the people down I hope that I also can decode this many years down the road. God bless people and good night

No more No more

2008-09-07T20:55:00.001+08:00

Yeah its a Sunday Night, Monday equals to the start of school =( No going to be online for too long so i decided to post on me bloggy first XD Then do more online stuffs b4 packing up and retiring for the night =D

Anyway, lets talk about my weekend =P Saturday was a little bit, scary =X TO BE TOTALLY frank, anyway it was Pei Ying's + Ald's birthday =) Though the plans were spoilt in the end, I went to meet up with Pei Ying to accompany her and Puilyn (I hope I got ur name correct) for a while b4 meeting them again later to pass Pei Ying her card, sorry no present =( I do hope she did enjoy her day =)

Bought the Kutless latest Album! upon the request of my brother =/ So technically not mine, I have no idea when he became a fan of Kutless but nonetheless I got the album! I'm ripping the disc now as i blog XD Though its giving me a little bit of problems. Anyway after service on Saturday, was JC PM and really made me think through a lot of things. It didn't really hit me but I went to Marks and Spencer's to study and talk about Geog with Gilbert had a nice time discussing tons and tons of stuff =P Plus plus Gilbert's and Tiffany's mission of extracting information from me failed XD I think I might tell that story soon =X Also i've finally gotten called something cool for once, people have told me i'm Malay, Indonesian, Australian.... But Gilbert thought i was part Korean!!!!!!!!! Thats like soooooo =P Okay i think i'm over doing this but XD It was so funny, that hardly anyone i've met this year guessed correct =X

Went home, deep in thought about certain things... might blog about it but not now =) That was the end of Saturday I guess XD With today coming to a close already, I spent most of the day at SummerFury Tournament, doing some media things. I need to do something about his Media venture I'm going at. After the exams perhaps. Funny thing was, the busy part of the day kind of encompassed other stuffs with me trying to figure out if I should head down to fort canning to surprise someone =X *Nudge Nudge* In the end I decided not to didn't want the wolf to cause havoc in the peace and tranquility of Fort Canning Park/Green/whatever. Next time we'll meet up XD When location, time and situation allows us too =P

At home now feeling tired tired tired. I have yet to finish the last part of the geog DRQ assignment but, o well, i'll stay online till 10+ perhaps =D

Good night and be ready for school people!!!!

Wake me up when September ends

2008-09-06T01:27:00.001+08:00

Eww that song just gives me the headaches, I remember it being played over and over and over on the media so much so i couldn't stand it.

Terrible day at home today, hardly managed to do anything but pfft nonetheless i normally offset everything till the middle of the night i.e. Now =P Anyway, i'm not exactly sure what this post is going to be about because i normally come into a post with a frame of mind so i must apologise if nothing really makes sense here.

Just ended a double House episode. Great show, really sets this wolf thinking sometimes. Like when it comes to politics and power, it reminded me of Friendship. Many things remind me of friendship and what you put first in your life.

I don't know what is important to people now, as for me God, Friends and Family are right there at the top of the list. Screw money and fame and what ever not you can think of, I have different priorities. However it is scaring me a little. Studies doesn't seem anywhere near that area. Home seems to be so distracting, let alone conducive. Hard to do anything these days. I got my list of THINGS TO DO half way up already, I need to stop thinking and start doing. I remember Jon Tay saying that to me XD

Besides, we all have our priorities, so what is yours? Right now? The year is coming to an end, major things are going to happen soon, exams, changes, shifts you name it. I know a few of us are suffering from a few of our own problems (more than some can imagine) but question is, what's more important now? I remember talking to a few more older people, and it always comes and go around and hits onto the same ol thing. What might be important to you, can be less important at the present time.

Whoa big words and that might be a mouthful for some. Sometimes our priorities shift, change... etc. Time for us to sort things right in this hectic nation of Singapore. What really is urgent, and what can be put off? Think about it.

You know one more thing? I was reminded in the episodes of House today?

If you had to risk something for a friend, would you? I don't know where this question might end up, but it really just made me think a little. The times we have with our friends, it sucks to lose them, to feel no one cares for you. But hey, if you're reading my blog post and you are thinking that way, please please drop a message. Why? I care, God cares and I know out there, there are people that care for you lots. Really there is.

I don't really know how to end of this blog post, other then going back to the title.

September will really be one long month for me. I'm going to go into overdrive pronto, so if anyone shares the same predicament as me, you better hit the NOS button and turbo charge your way into the goal area. 60 rank points, here i come. =)

P.S. My dear Orange, this wolf ends this post with a howl out to you =D Smile and be happy, don't feel down, cheer up kay? Inside and outside ^^

September about Friends

2008-09-04T00:55:00.001+08:00

Whoa its like September now wanted to blog so so so many times just couldn't find the things or the mood to blog about some stuffs =( ANyway i still can't remember what part of those empty days i wanted to blog about XD

Weekends for me has been like urgh.... terrible for some odd reason I didn't think that I had such an enjoyable weekend other then the service atmosphere that managed to keep me pumped up because of the great session I had. Cried well to be frank I tear-ed after thinking about the many things in my life. It was so hard for me to put it all in words. Metamorphosis and the recent service just well tugged my heart strings around. The world being such a miserable place sometimes...

Heck! My legs hurt XD soccer session was tough on my feet =( Ouch! Yeah we played footy from like 2 till 6 on monday and guess what! Walked even more to the food centre at ECP then after finally getting a place to sit down we order our stuff which well took ages again =O THen munch munch XD Had like lots of stuff on the table including cockles and other stuffs and then just talked about the illegal stuffs that teens do nowadays like under aged drinking, how to sneak into movies =X blah blah all of that went home at about 9:30pm took an insanely long bus ride while still talking about all those illegal stuffs =X

With my leg still hurting and I spent the day walking around school to plaza sing to bishan library and then the food court for some stuffs and it really just made me think about typing this blog post tonight, cus I feel it has been tugging me for sometime already so i'm going to let it all out!

Friends

I don't know if any of you ever felt this way before. Thinking and recalling about all the times you had with your Friends and laughing and just smiling at the silly, the happy and all the joyful moments you spent with them. Only to realise that those moments have come to pass and now they are being stored as memories. No more time spent with them, no more times spent talking to them, no more communication.

People tell us all to move on, get on with life. Its a passing stage, but never has it been so easy. These people were your life, these people made it all worthwhile. Each day, each morning, each night, you think, you recall and you hope for a better tomorrow with them. Now it all turns to dust and you cry, you lament on the past wishing, wanting it to happen all over again. Sometimes you want it never to have happened at all, so that you do not suffer the hurt.

What good does those happy memories serve if they only bring you pain? What good can it do if they have already drifted away? Friends sometimes you ask, are they ever true? Friends you lose them in a fight, they just walk out of sight, you never find them back again and you give up... Its those days where you just stand on the bus or sit down in a class or even sleep on your bed and just cry. Ever had one of those days? Ever had one of those thoughts in your head?

I have.

Through my walk with God, through my walk in life, i've learned many a lesson. The hardest lesson that I ever had to learn was that you can never embrace everything in life. The good stuff, your hands aren't big enough to hold them all =( the bad stuff seems to come your way when all the things start to fall.

Then those words by people echo in your head.... "Move On"

You stare into space, then a tear down you face.

Why do people ask us to move on? A death of a Friendship is so hard to handle, how can we just move on? I can't, I won't.

If anyone who reads this share the same feelings I have for the Friends I have made, then why not try this. I tell people not to move on, but to TRUST, I tell them to HOPE. Trust that God will one day place these Friends back into your life, Hope that when the time comes, all the memories won't just stay as memories but they will manifest themselves into events in your life that you will never ever forget.

Don't just move on, don't just cry, I tell everyone to hope and hang on to that trust. I tell everyone to put in the effort in your busy schedule to send an sms, to give a call, to arrange a meet up. I promise you it will do wonders! I promise you that Friends that you have will never forget you, as long as you never forget them.

This is what I think Friends are

People whom you Fellowship with

Remember the Lord of the Rings? The group of hobbits that stuck together through thick and thin? That is Fellowship. You share the good times, you overcome the bad times. Even though you may not be together always, even though you might have to go on your separate paths, the Fellowship will be there for you.

Reliable

Yes there are a bunch of Reliable people. Times when you are down you can Rely on them because these people that God has placed in your life, you know you can trust. You know that its not just anyone you can trust but that special group of people willing to embrace you with their warmth.

Indispensable

It the people you cannot live without. Sometimes yes they might fail you, sometimes yes you might fight, but you must realise that there is this group of people at the end of the day will realise that they are Indispensable, they unique and they share your life and their life with you always.

Eternal

These people no matter where you are you just know you need them. They know that they need you. No matter where you go or where you are, you'll always find this close circle of friends around you always holding your hand. You may not realise it now but, soon one day you will. God placed these people in your life not just once off, but he place them forever to be in your life. Not at every step of the way, but the steps where he knows you need an earthly companion, the steps where you might fall, the steps where you can share the hardship and then spread the joy with. Friends are Eternal and in order for them to truly be Eternal you must keep them Eternal in that one special place. Your heart for Eternity

Necessary

This is something that I am most certain about. Don't ever think you can move on and just get over it. There will be people that need you and the people you need. Don't live in the emo generation, break free of that chain. Friends are indeed a Necessity in life. No matter how much you try to deny it, friends when it comes down to it are Necessary. They Need you and you Need them. These are why Friends are there for each other, they Need to be with you.

Dependable

You can count on them. Good times the bad times, its all about the trust you have the trust you can feel. The shoulder for you to lie on, the hand for you to hold, the person that will hug you, send you a message at the right times. These are the people you can Depend on these are the people called Friends.

Special

Sure we are all different, we have our good points and bad points but these people are just! Special! Sometimes you can't stand them but they are the people that make your life worth living. They are the people you look forward to see each day, the special people in your life. Friends.

Do i Need to say more?

FRIENDS

Just a random tag post XD

2008-08-28T02:20:00.001+08:00

Tagged By: Li En

PLEASE STATE YOUR:

Name: Donovan
NickName: Wolf (Not Coloured Wolf! 色狼!!!)
Sex: Isn't Donovan a guy's name? I'm Male duh!
Hair: Its short and its black what more can i say?
Age:16 going on to 17
School: SAJC(Saint Andrews Junior College)
Height: 171cm

What did you do???/What will you do???

At 11am tis morning?? Trying to complete an article in the school lab
at 9pm tonite?? Debate briefing =X
at ur house todae?? Use the computer for the thing at 9pm (Look above)

Do you Believe in =0
Yourself?? Most of the time =)
God?? Amen!
Love?? Of course
Miracles?? With God anything is possible

Hav uue ever...
look at the person uue x3?? That crush that I had so long ago... of course
eat something uue hate?? I don't think I can find anything I hate at the moment =X
being rejected?? Well rejection... who hasn't
kiss someone?? Nope, still reserving it for that person in my life

What about now???
*eating? Hungry but tired...
*drinking? Water my throat is really dry like a desert!
*doing? Blogging? Is that a dumb qsn?
*tinkin about?? Why you ask such a question?

Which is betta? =P
a little boyboy or a little galgal?? I'm not sure actually...
a normal fren or a trust fren?? Asking the obvious =.= A friend I can trust!
hug or kisses?? Depends from who XD Just joking I would love either X or O XOXO
tall or short?? I want to be an average height like what I am now is okay maybe a bit taller =P
flip or slide phone?? Slide, I can't really stand flip phones they make too much noise (Clank*)

5 ppl hu i would like to tag them:(heehee :DD)

Aldrich

Lisabeth

Hwee Yee

Amos

Sparsh

Wow so long didn't post I wonder if they will see =X

Reaching out

2008-08-24T14:02:00.001+08:00

Well I did say I wanted to blog in the morning but I guess I delayed it till the afternoon. Whoa as usual feeling very un-productive at home =( but that is just one thing, so let me clear my mind of this post first and proceed with studying for my MSA's tomorrow.

Lets see.... Lets talk about events b4 I get to the post proper XD

There was national day!

Danial our Model with Kia Boon XD

Though i still prefer the traditional March March March parade thing + performace =/

Lets see... next was...

Ta - Da! First Anniversary for the JC district!!! That was real fun XD

After that was WCG 08

The Main Stage

Me with the Media tag XD

Seriously makes you feel important it really does =P

Cosplay-ers practicing their dance steps

Then the night under the stars at Fort Canning!!!!

The mystical entrance

The view from a far

The smokey stage

Dancers so great!

Singers on stage!

The back view!

It was such a great night with the rain stopping and starting b4 the concert and then when i did start the rain did stop. You could just feel it in the air as we worshipped, small drop of rain from the sky, it was as if God was showing his presence. Magic I tell you, Magic.

To complete the whole thing, here's a video from a fellow member in the audience.

Wow that was a long post huh? That's not the end of things, here's the Main part of the post that I want to highlight!

OUTREACH

Yes outreach. With the ESS service (Clique) long past and Promo's underway, don't you think its time for us to stop? Start studying for promos? Get our studies right so that we don't retain?

If you ever dare think that way, shame on you. This goes out not to just my fellow members of SACG, not just to hope, but to everyone out there. Did God ever abandon you? Did he ever turn his back on you? Did he ever put his MSN status to Busy?

NEVER.

If you walk away and just shun the idea of outreach just because you feel busy and you feel you have no time then I'm so sad for you. You do not see the beauty that everything in God can be integrated into every part of our lives! When you study, study with your friends, when you're in class don't just idle around and do nothing, talk about the greater things in life. Its not easy when your focus is on how well you're going to do in the next physics MSA but its so easy when your focus is entirely on God!

He'll make it all fit into place, believe me he will. Think about the people that need saving just talk to your friends, the people around you. It need not be about God but don't let it be just about studies. Use your words to lighten up someone's day, to help someone in need of help. Its not about scoring the good grades, what its really about it getting pass promo's and ensuring you get through promo's with little worry and much Joy.

Show people that you're not bored in lessons, try to spice things up with God's help! Its hard to describe how to stretch your hand out to reach people but let me tell you this.

OUTREACH isn't a season. OUTREACH IS A LIFESTYLE.

Our own social paths are essentially our life! Why can't we integrate the habit of outreaching into our lives?

Is it because we can't? We don't dare? We feel that it is not important?

Let me tell you why we don't. Its our focus!

John 3:16-17

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Lets save lives.

Quote from the movie Atlantis: Milo's Return

"The brightest light is worth nothing if hidden in a cave. Let us share our light with the world!"

Matthew 5: 14-16

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

Any resemblance?

Share our light, share our blessings, share the greatness of God.

Especially at this time, with exams coming, dependence and reliance on God is so crucial. I believe God can do wonders in our lives if we have that special habit of Outreaching in our lives. We all have our own ways, some more subtle, some more obvious, but don't stop trying, don't be put of by rejections and most importantly don't give up. There are ways, there are means and there will be greatness when we share our light in this times of darkness as the Dark cloud of Promo's is hanging over.

Also I recently got back into this book titled, Manual of the Warrior of Light. This book had helped me tide past certain things and periods in my life and its really great that I revealed the wonders of this book once again. Here's Page 213 of the book.

A Warrior of Light shares with others what he knows of the path.

Anyone who gives help also receives help and needs to teach what he has learned. That is why the warrior sits by the fire and recounts his day on the battlefield.

A friend whispers "Why talk so openly about your strategy? Don't you realise that by doing so, you run the risk of sharing your conquests with others?"

The warrior merely smiles and says nothing. He knows that if at the end of his journey, he arrives to find an empty paradise, his struggle will have been a waste of time.

Its up to you to interpret this passage from the book of mine. For me I have my own feelings of this passage and what it really reminds me off was Jon Tay's teaching during the Hope Camp (Oasis) 08

Why be timid when the strategy in our life can renew, save and transform lives? Why?

In Romans it says

How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent?

We all have our own limitations, but what about our possibilities? Strike at once when the opportunity arises don't be timid and afraid because you see a boulder blocking your way, with God, faith as small as a mustard see can move mountains, how difficult would a boulder be?

Remember the chain of people? Remember? How long do you want that chain to be?

Remember about finishing it in our life time? Remember? The Great Commission, in our life time! The GC is our generation! Lets see that happen, lets see it come to light!

Howling's from the Wolf.

Donovan Foo.

Long time no see XD

2008-08-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

Its been such such such a long time since I opened Windows Live Writer or any program on the the computer for that matter =/

I have been wanting to blog about certain topic but I guess I'll leave it till later after sleep. Don't have a clear mind right now =X

So many things have happened since I stopped using the computer and I really want to thank God for teaching me some discipline for those three weeks. I'm going to change much much much after all that. Tired after one heck of a JUMP and then service the next day. What I want to say is all in my next blog post so do look forward to it tomorrow morning.

Also I want to dedicate this small post to a few certain people that I'll be praying for you after this.

1) Lisabeth --> Been such a long time and still worried for you so I give you my heart and keep you in prayer =)

2) Yu Jun --> Dude its like this we all need help and lets support each other and see each other grow remember all those promises? Lets keep them and see them come true =)

3) Pei Ying --> Great times since ur tests are over I really really want to pray for you for the things you are about to do in life and in the KOG

4) Mom --> You're sick now and working late. I really appreciate all you've done for me though I don't show it at all. Love you lots and I want you to get better!

Just a few prayer points to end my post and a coming of a new one later =)

J U M P

2008-08-20T10:38:00.003+08:00

J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P J U M P

Yep JUMP is here! I wanted to do a publicity post at the start of august but internet went KAPUT now still KAPUT i guess...

In school now doing math work and just decided to J U M P!

Here's the video for JUMP

So if anyone really really wants to come drop me a call =) I do hope I can get people who are really interested for the concert!!!! Rumors have it that there will be fireworks on that day itself XD

Contact and drop the WoLF a HoWL @ 8182857

See ya there!

I decided

2008-08-19T10:31:00.005+08:00

Guess what i'm just gonna enter a short post everyday without any creativity =( I feel so sad that I can't post the super super long entries I want to type about ideals and thoughts that I have in my head. I need those times to let my creative flair loose!

Well enough of me ranting, for now i'll just stick to updating my blog just for fun telling all of you that PE today was total crap why? Simply because we didn't play anything at all =.= Yeah... SUCK! After that had a geog test in which i didn't manage to complete =( Didn't have enough time to think and write my points out. But nontheless I hope I pulled it off okay =\

Alright I'm going back to read some random articles but I'll leave you with some real life pranks.

Here's one about done on the hollywood sign! (This is genuine)

Some students decided to deface the hollywood sign XD

And the liberty under ice =P

Just for laughs thought it might be cool thats all.

BLOG BLOG BLOG DOWN =(

2008-08-18T15:00:00.002+08:00

DOWN DOWN DOWN blog is dead for sooo sooo long

I want to post so so so many blog blog blog post but it sucks having no internet so now i'll just concentrate on my promo's =(

Other than that its sucks cus without the internet its uber hard to do thing like PW and a new thing i'm doing right now about gaming ^^

O well i hope you all won't miss my posts I really have lots of stuffs to type about and mass it into my blog once my internet is up. Anyway, I got to go now, using internet in school for work so I shall not waste time blogging too much or using facebook =X

JUMP is happening this friday!!!

Anyone interested in a concert at the park? Contact me =)

Good luck for FINAL YEAR EXAMS, PROMOTIONALS, N LEVELs, O LEVELs and A LEVELs all the bestest!!!

Yuck... Spoiler

2008-07-27T15:32:00.001+08:00

Was about to post a blog post until I had my mood totally spoilt by mum =(

Well not that I am frowning or anything but sometimes life at home just doesn't cooperate with me. Why? Well I told mum that I was not going to be home for dinner and then wham made a huge fuss about preparing dinner already and now is like 3? That's a bit off.. I guess its my fault anyway for telling her that I won't be home for dinner this late... should have told her much earlier so that she didn't have to waste her effort preparing a nice dinner for me =\

Then more scolding from her as I asked my brother to come out of my room because my books were piled on my table and my brother was studying on that messy table... Some appreciation I get for helping people out huh? But again I am changed and I won't let such a thing affect my mood =) No way am I going to be put down for such a thing ^^

So why not I blog about something else before I come to my intended blog post XD

Something short I want to say to all my blog readers =)

The wolf 2...

Lynnette --> Yeah long posts XD I love blogging! Hope you enjoyed reading it =D

Sophia --> Thanks!!!! I just can't wait to see my FAITH soar to new heights! And I will post more cats (Animals) soon!

Jing Er --> I think recently I am in the mood for such posts even though not all have quotes from the bible but my next post which I hope I can blog about tonight will be one long one too!

Sue Anne --> Hey! Long time no contact XD Didn't know you read my blog =P Thanks for the praise on my post gladly appreciate it! Hope you're doing fine ^^

Pei Ying --> Yeah I read your post! It was whoa! A good one =D Follow your dreams!!!!

I know we don't always get appreciated for the things we do. The good intentions we have. The behind the scenes actions that we may have helped in. But hey! What's there to stop us from doing the GOOD things =) We should always put on a smile when doing the things we should do. What's easy isn't always right and what's right isn't always easy =D

Fundamentally, its always down to choices.

I remember yesterday after service and a few days ago this word has been egging in the back of my mind. Talking to Delvin, Tiffany and Joane yesterday and talking to Celine over the phone to the early hours of the morning PLUS what has happened just a couple of minutes ago would make this seemingly short blog post VERY much longer.

CHOICES

Let me talk about the part about choices we always have to make in life.

What's easy isn't always right and what's right isn't always easy.

I don't know if you understand this but I just want to bring this point across to all my readers =D

Remember what happened to me just now? I could have flared up and explained my actions to my mum, I CHOSE not to. Why? Simply because by explaining myself it wouldn't matter! The job was done and my actions were just! Inside I know it was right and I don't have to explain it to anyone. Why prove to others that you're right, when you yourself can see that you're right!

I know there are times when this happened, times when you walk into your class room and find it in a mess you clear it up a bit, adjust the books of your fellow classmates, sweep the floor a bit and tidy up your class notice board. Then someone walks in and accuses you of trying to change the notice board which (he/she) so painstakingly, single handedly made! You get pissed for being wrong and then start the verbal knife throwing. WHY?

Was it about your ego? Was it about pride? I don't know... But I know it didn't help...

What about the time when your friend throws his wrapper on the floor, you see it, do you pick it up?

What about the time when you saw your friend being bad mouthed when he/she wasn't there, do you speak up?

What about the time you see that your classmate is being ostracised by your friends, do you join in? Or do you step up?

How about the time where you did something wrong but yet try to push the blame to others?

I don't know about you but these sure sound like choices to me. Normally the choices we make are easy, the wide crowded route where our actions aren't right but they are the NORMAL thing to do. What's wrong with picking up a sweet wrapper? What's wrong with giving up your seat? What's wrong for speaking up for your friend? What's wrong with talking to the most silent person in your class? What is wrong in facing the music? NOTHING

The fault lies in us, it causes us to fall... IT is pride, IT is ego, IT is you. I'm not saying that I don't commit such mistakes but I want to change slowly and surely I will do everything without hiding my head I want to do the RIGHT thing.

Its quite sad to see that in our mortal world, in the natural world today, the natural order is to go with the crowd. You'll be deemed weird if you picked up that wrapper, gave up your seat, spoke up for a friend. Well what you don't know can't hurt can it? Besides, you can pretend not to see the wrapper, pretend not to see the elderly lady, pretend you didn't hear the bad mouthing besides your friend isn't there to hear it anyway!

Maybe the title of the post shouldn't be choices, but I know its something worthwhile to blog about =) Think about it. What's easy isn't always right, what's right isn't always easy. But I know what's right feels right and what's wrong is wrong no matter how many excuses you come up with.

Next post... Outreach (with pictures!)

What a....

2008-07-24T18:16:00.001+08:00

Yuck... Today woke up half dead and everything... Then wham didn't go to school =.= Yeah I didn't go to school today for the dumbest of reasons =(

Anyway, I wanted to post a post some time ago about well you'll find out later if I have the motivation to post it. As for now I'll just throw out random pictures of Cats since some of my readers adore them XD

Well Hope ur happy with cat pictures XD I just love animals =P

O here are more random pictures of stuffs that i toyed around with =/

O yeah here MY view of the commendation =( Dumb pillar...

But wait!!! the pillar keeps the building up! Why can't we see through pillars... Sigh...

well one more picture from my computer about a bridge look closely though...

Yeah cool huh? a bridge connecting Sweden and Denmark.

Well if you have reached till this part of the post then yay for you cus this part of the post is well I'll just come up with something thats kinda bugging me but not to that much of an extent.

A blade through and through

Ever got stabbed in the back? Yeah we all have, but its seems at the end of the day not a big deal. To everyone who is feeling backstabbed right now just ask yourself, how much does it matter to you? To be frank and if you realise the truth yourself, NOT MUCH.

Ever got stabbed by something called abandonment? We don't realise it sometimes but the reason why we feel hurt when some people stab us in the back but at others we don't care for anything in the world. The reason is when you know that you trust someone you expect that person to stick with you. When that person just walks out or goes a different way, you consider it backstabbing. Well I think what we really feel is not being backstabbed the pain doesn't come from being stabbed but instead by being abandoned by someone we have a relationship with.

Maybe none of you understand what I am trying to get at but abandonment is a pain in the heart, a blade through our soul, a ticking time bomb in our mind. Sometimes we just feel like exploding and when we do, its either an outburst of anger or a flood of tears. We all really fear abandonment and we get angry at it.

Why do I type all of this? Its not because anyone has abandoned me but instead I think I stabbed myself. Shot myself in the foot, thrown myself off the cliff. Remember my previous post on LOVE? Yeah love pulled me through, love is the way of my life now. LOVE is really really strong. Yeah I felt as if I was alone on that road once again... what road? The road of solitude, ice cold eyes that stare into blank space.

I don't know if anyone of my readers feel lost, feel alone in the world of ice. I let me tell you, LOVE will melt the shards of ice in your hearts and LOVE is truly a fire that I want to grow a fire that doesn't hurt, a fire that brings LIGHT into the world of darkness.

Now the blade of abandonment and the icy shard of solitude must disappear, we all hate it. You nod your head in agreement, the feeling of emptiness just hurts you so much. You want out right now, you want it all to be better, but you know in reality it cannot change over night. You harbour negative thoughts, your pessimism is a cage that locks you in. Don't lock yourself in, don't cut yourself with the blade, don't freeze your heart with ice.

Then when your days are bright and the sun is shining don't abandon others, don't cut them with the blade, don't bring a blizzard towards them but instead give them light!

Darkness can not drive out darkness only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate only love can do that.

- Martin Luther King Jr

To all my friends whom I hold dear. Your names are in a book, a book in my hearts burning in a fire, but not burning away. Its burning bright.

What is LOVE ?

2008-07-19T05:26:00.000+08:00

MISCILENEAOUS

Let me start off by first saying that its SUPER EARLY! I'm online! GOsh... Didn't send Mdm Hoh the Written Report =.= Haven't contacted the people for service learning =( If there is any class you want to join please let me know =)

Moving on =) I got kicked out of my CCA =( Teacher wasn't happy (shall not say who) said I wasn't being responsible for not going for TERM 2's session and some people from Math com said I didn't do anything to help them and I was dodging them =( Its sad but you know something? The wolf is down (for now) but he ain't out... I've been thinking about Mentoring and lets say, I don't give in easy. We'll see how it goes =D

ABOUT

Now to all of you who don't know! Plus this part of the post is going out to Sophia =) 22 March 2008

Was the day I was brought back to life, forgiven of my sins and since then, never have i regretted my decision. Why did I? How did I? What happened? Well ask me personally and you'll find out =D

Personally I love telling this story to people =) <<A wolf Reborn>> That would be the title if ever I were to write a book =X Haha My wishful thinking XD

Anyway, went to cathedral yesterday for the commendation thing for the student council. It was preeeety interesting the way they had to take EIGHT seconds to sit down and they could only sit at the edge of their chairs =( They really did practice ALOT cus they all sat in synchro and dowed in synchro and.... well you get my point! After that headed to Raffles City Shopping Centre for lunch? Not really but then tagged with Delvin to the Library to do QT met A06 there (well a little bit of them) and blah blah that generally was my day yesterday quite interesting personally XD

What is interesting however is TODAY! CLIQUE is here! Let me do some advertising first =)

Clique Here Publicity - July 08 ESS from Y-Hope TV on Vimeo.

So clique here =)

Well if after watching the video and reading all of that stuff up there and you are still reading on, here's a warning.

THE CONTENT YOU ARE ABOUT TO READ WILL BE EXTREMELY LONG PERSONAL CARE AND GUIDANCE IS ADVISED.

If you have been staring at my post for more half an hour please turn away and look at a tree outside. Let your eyes rest. FIGHT MYOPIA

What is LOVE?

Hey Hey, don't get me wrong here I've not been hit by cupid or been bitten by the love bug. Its more like I found myself something that I want to live by, you might call it a calling or what ever not but this wolf has set his eyes on a big goal. TO BE LOVE. (And no i didn't have anything wrong with my grammar in that sentence)

Personally i've been going through my fair share of problems, just like anyone you talk to you'll find out everyone has their own fair share of problems. As for me? Well first is with myself, to be frank to you, over the past month, i've been thinking about my life, my friends, my family, my school (YTSS), my college (SAJC), my church (Hope Church of SIngapore) and anything else you can fit there.

Thinking about what? Simply put, what I should place second in my life. Why second? Because first place, centre of the universe... etc only goes to one and one only. GOD.

But why Do I still think so much then? *lets out huge sigh* That is just the way I am, my mind is always active for some apparent ODD reason or another. I can't help but feel this huge burden that I may have to give up something precious to me. I've got this nagging feeling that it will be my

Not give all of you up as in literally, but its just that maybe, i'm not capable to juggle hanging out with all of you, trying to teach some of you, talking to a handful of you and keeping in touch with the rest of you all at the same time while I myself am a total mess in college.

Guess God really thrown and flung one huge challenge at me. Friends just seem to be slowly falling out of my life and I feel so weak, so sad, so worried, so much in pain that I cannot do anything.

But bless God that my Shepherd Jon Tay loaned me this book that I read, "studied" and now I am blogging about it myself.

That book really helped me through my time and I now have completed my oasis camp objective of FAITH. I believe I have achieved stability in that area now and will be pursuing something much more than FAITH in myself, FAITH in all the people around me.

Let me share with all of you what I have gone through over the month using a blog entry about LOVE.

So what is LOVE?

Let me show you something powerful from the bible and i think i'll deem it my favourite chapter. 1 Corinthians 13

Here is my favourite part of the chapter Verses 4-7

"LOVE is patient, LOVE is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. LOVE does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

Do you see where i'm coming from? I took out two big valuable lessons from this verse in the book that I read.

1) This love is a love only one can provide. God

2) This love is something I believe everyone should strive to attain.

This is true love.

LOVE is Patient

Patience check the dictionary and you'll find that it says

"the ability to wait"

In Greek, the word patience is figurative and it says "takes a long time to boil"

Then you ask me so what? Well, I would then say, what allows something to boil up? Heat. Then simply patience would mean, keeping the heat low. Patience Isn't naive, it does not ignore misbehaviour, it keeps the heat low, it waits, it listens, its slow to boil.

I wonder if you are starting to nod your head? Well I know I did when I read this.

Patience doesn't come easy, I know it doesn't. Have you ever felt irritated when you're waiting for someone and that person just seems to be that much late? Then when he/she finally calls you, you shout at him/her and probably say "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN?" "I've been waiting for you for..."

Your friend then interrupts "I'm sorry, my mother was involved in a car accident..."

You say "O my gosh, I'm so so sorry..."

Well you probably can imagine what would happen next, i'll just leave that to your imagination. Maybe you didn't have such a TV drama show experience but I know everyone of us has been through something similar.

Look, at that simple story. Waiting for that friend for some time causes you to boil, you friend finally calls or you finally decide to call them, you've hit boiling point and a flurry of words spew out of you. That anger, that discontentment.

Its when you find out the reason behind it, your strong feeling of impatience subsides and impatience dramatically becomes patience. If I were to continue the story, the YOU in the story would probably not say anything but listen to what has happened with his/her friend.

That my friends is Patience. Patience coupled with understanding is the route you take. Did you once become impatient but then realise and understood the situation and impatience took a big U-turn and turned to patience? Patience is waiting, waiting till you understand and patience will be retained. Love is Patient.

LOVE is Kind

Kindness wow that's a big word don't you think? Being kind to someone, sounds easy enough. Then ask yourself, when was the last time you did something kind without being asked? A birthday celebration? That's nice and all that but what about holding the door for people? Clearing your table at the fast food restaurant? Sure... People are going to think that you are the all nice goody two shoes but I don't see anything wrong with that?

Lets take this one step further, think about your class. Which person is the most avoided, the most shy, the most quiet, the most "weird".... etc

"Are you kind to this person?"

Lets bring this to the ultimate level, what about the people that hate you, the people that compete with you? Your enemies? Are you kind to them? You'll probably say "No way! What do I stand to gain?" You know what I say? "What do you stand to lose?" Be kind to your enemies. Why? Because personally I believe, I don't ever want to have enemies, if you're not my friend, then you're just not my friend YET.

Whatever you do in kindness, nothing is ever wasted. That is love, Love is never wasted, Love is kind.

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Well here i introduce to you another version of the same verse.

LOVE does not envy

I tell you the truth, recently over this week, I am guilty of being jealous. Mixed reactions really, I didn't know what to do so as I was reading the book I understood. My fear and such a bad thought in my head, was wrong and I learned to love once more. Truly love.

What is envy really? Jealousy? Anger? Nope its neither. Envy is envy (DUH) but check this, envy is a flicker, just a flicker of resentment towards people who have something you want but you don't have.

Wonder why i stressed the word flicker?

Simply because this flicker is mighty dangerous, its a flicker of resentment in our hearts that we tend to keep and not really care about it. What harm can it do right?

Look at your shirt (if you're wearing one =X) now imagine it had a small little flame burning at the edge. Would you say, what harm can it do? Of course not! You'll put it out immediately! This is the same for envy. How does fire grow? It starts out small and then get bigger before consuming everything in its fiery breath.

If the flicker is envy then what's the fire? Look at the blue words, yeah, scroll up. There's your answer. Jealousy. Envy left unchecked will turn into jealousy and what is jealousy?

"a feeling of unhappiness and anger because someone has something or someone that you want"

Do you see that contrast? I hope you do... Do not be jealous but rejoice in the things you have and rejoice in the friends that you share. Love does not envy.

LOVE does not boast, it is not proud

You're the leader of your group, the president of your society, a high ranking big shot, a famous star! You have so much authority! Its amazing isn't it? How people come at your beck and call (not literally), how you give orders to people around you and just sit there and do nothing but supervise! Wow its great to take that high umpire's chair overlooking everything isn't it?

Think again. That is just bossing around, down right abuse. No one deserves to be bossed around by someone who does nothing but sits there and watch. The higher up you go, the more work you should expect to do. I tell you to go far in life, don't climb up the ladder, climb down. Do not command legions of people, instead climb down and help legions of people. That my friends is LOVE.

A love that will enable you to put others before yourself. Let me share with you a story. Taekwondo style =X

Esther Kim knows what this means. For thirteen years, she had one dream. The summer Olympics. She wanted to represent her country the US of A in the Olympics. From the age of eight she devoted her heart and body into strict training. It was in her pursuit of this where she met Kay her best friend. The two worked so hard and it wasn't surprising that they qualified for the trails for the squad.

However, they never expected to be pitted against each other. Only one could win, only one could go to Australia for the 2000 summer Olympics. If this wasn't dramatic enough, to top it all of was the fact that Kay injured her leg in the previous match. She could hardly walk, much less compete. Esther could easily defeat Kay with hardly any effort at all.

Esther knew that Kay was the better fighter, so would she take this chance to pounce and seize this opportunity to get to the Olympics? Esther stepped onto the mat and bowed to her friend, her opponent, to Kay. Esther forfeited her place. She considered the cause more important than the credit.

So it leads me to a question, what's more important to you? The work to be done or the fact that you would be seen doing the work. Do you consider others to be more important than yourself?

LOVE is not rude

Rudeness, shameful or disgraceful behaviour. Why would anyone want to shame themselves? When you hear me say this, I hope you start to think. When was the last time you were rude to someone? What did you do? What happened? What did you say? How did the people react?

Yeah, you think about it and ask yourself, in your times of rudeness, were you ever once ashamed of shouting at someone? Did you ever feel disgraced for blocking a corridor? Sure you feel ashamed when you fart, but this rudeness is something bigger, you can't pass of a sudden outburst of anger with a simple "excuse me" If we could, then it would seriously mess up life. But the fact is we can't.

Rudeness is all about rights! Do you agree?

Do you have the right to dominate a conversation?

Do you have the right to feign ignorance?

Do you have the right to start bad mouthing someone?

Yes you do actually? Isn't this great? FREEDOM! LET do anything we want!

But wait...

IS IT LOVING?

   Love never gives up.
   Love cares more for others than for self.
   Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
   Love doesn't strut,
   Doesn't have a swelled head,
   Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
   Doesn't fly off the handle,
   Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
   Doesn't revel when others grovel,
   Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
   Puts up with anything,
   Trusts God always,
   Always looks for the best,
   Never looks back,
   But keeps going to the end.

Here's another one from the exact same verse.

LOVE is not self-seeking

Really, I really did cover this just now but hey lets take another look at it. Our world now has a huge epidemic affecting everyone! Its proven fact, you don't even need a doctor to tell you that you have it. You, you alone can tell if you can have it.

Selfishness

Believe it or not, we all are selfish in one way or another.

Go check out a group photo! Does it look nice? Yeah! Does it look nice when you don't look nice in it? Err... Maybe not so. Does it look nice when you look great but one of your friend's faces is blurred out? Or is looking at another direction? Has his/her eyes closed? You would not have noticed it when you downloaded the photo from flicker, facebook or friendster. But isn't this clear enough for you?

Love isn't about "me first" Let's place the needs of others above our own!

LOVE is not easily angered

Simple question you must ask, why do we get angry? Take some time to think about it.

Remember envy and jealously? The flicker and the fire? What if I told you anger is an explosion? When something explodes there must be a source right? Think about the last time you got angry. What happened?

I can make a safe bet and say.

Rejection

Yep rejection, someone said no to you, or denied you of something and then what? That's the spark, the cause and then BOOM you get angry.

Rejections are like speed bumps on the road. They come with the journey. You're probably going to get cut, dished, dropped and kicked around. You cannot keep people from rejecting you, you cannot run away from rejection! BUT YOU CAN KEEP REJECTIONS FROM ENRAGING YOU!

LOVE keeps no records of wrongs

Yeah that is love. Forgive and forget is what I can say to sum it all up. I blogged about second quarter of the year, check it out if you want. http://unheardwolfcry.blogspot.com/2008/05/forgiveness.html

But I take back what I said to forgive and not to forget. Why? If you forgive but do not forget then what is the point in forgiving? TO KEEP NO RECORDS OF WRONGS! The more you keep them within you the more trash your heart collects, until one day it collects so much trash that no one will bother about you.

Lets all strive to seek forgiveness and to forgive. This I remember is rule number 7 of the wolf.

LOVE always protects

Love is warmth, protects people from the harsh extreme weather outside. Its is a cloak that keeps us safe and secure. Love, it protects. Do you see anyone in need of love, in need of your protection? Have you ever once received the cloak of protection? The Cloak of LOVE? Late one night, your friend dropped a message to see if you were alright because you were having a very bad mood in school? In times of need someone stayed up, stayed back to help you with your problem? That my readers is the cloak that protects, gives warmth and brings encouragement.

When your friend is the topic of a gossip, do you stand up and protect him/her? Would you do that? Protect the precious name of your friend? Would you protect the people you love?

LOVE always trusts

Wow trust =) This word really means a lot to me. I've blogged/mentioned about it a couple of time and I feel I should just reiterate it all over again.

Trust sometimes is the equivalent to giving the enemy your weapon and expecting them to give them theirs. Have you ever asked yourself "Why is it so easy for me to trust someone, but so difficult for people to trust me?" Do you even trust yourself?

Trust is the process of building a house of cards with a person. You take ages to get the house of cards done, but when your friend decides to just push the cards aside, it only takes a matter of seconds for it to fall. Trust takes months even years to build. The funny thing is trust is so weak it can be broken in a matter of seconds.

That is why trust alone cannot stand. On what basis do you trust that person? Your friend? Your parents?

No you trust the person because you love that person.

LOVE always hopes

Wow hope is really a powerful tool a powerful gift that you can use to help people in times of need. Have you ever received hope from someone and its has managed to propel you forward? At times when you were down has someone place their hope in you knowing that you will succeed?

That's hope. Hope is believing and seeing the light!

Hope Church of SIngapore! Its full of hope =)

LOVE always endures

I started at 2 and now its five. I know my sections have been getting shorter and shorter but really most of them hardly need explanation. Here I still am enduring on! For I really want to spread the word of LOVE to everyone! If you have reached this part of the blog entry, I am almost done. I am really glad for those who have read up till this point. Why? I have a message for you.

No matter who you are, how you treat me, or what ever thoughts you have about me, my love for you will endure on. So I ask of you to accepted it and to my friends, to my family, to the people I know, this wolf will never leave you. I will always be on that hill waiting for someone to call his name and I WILL HELP YOU. No matter how tough it may be this wolf will not give up.

In your walk in God in your path in life, you will face challenges and obstacles. With Love for the people around you I know that you will pull through! That is the power of LOVE

Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

LOVE is all

Yeah Love is all things, it comes in a package deal. Let me sum up this blog post saying that Love is all things to us. We should not just selectively love but love everyone around us! That is the only way we can truly love!

Love from the Howling wolf. Good Night.

Well just a short post

2008-07-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

Its was frantic today when my mom said she didn't have my entry proof =X

Ta-da! Found it!!! Where? With mom XD

Not in the right mood to blog my post about love now haha I have so much things on my mind. Wanted to head on to MSN today but I think I know why I it wasn't planned for me to be online tonight. And coming online now was the right time. So it is the perfect timing this late to seek God so that I may understand more of myself through his word.

My super duper long post will be out some where else! SOme time soon!

And BTW Sophia!!! I'll post a post about that as well. When, how, who... etc all the juicy details of me having GOd in my life =D Sorry i've been sooooo busy and decided not to let the computer distract me =\

BTW Li Min =X I kinda got myself kicked out of my CCA for odd reasons =(

ALSO ^^ the one im most worried about for the past week is in pink of health from a new found person in her life. =) I'm really greatful =D Keep Smiling Lisa.

B2B! Back to blogging!!! Time and time.

2008-07-09T23:15:00.001+08:00

Yeah its been so so sooooo Long since I last blogged and so so soooo many things have happened!!!

I being very serious about it! I can't exactly remember what or when but I do know that i've been thinking about it just so much. Broke down time and time again while just thinking about it. Don't ask why, its just God's way of telling me that I've not been doing enough.

The burdens placed on me, I will not deny. I will embrace them and walk with him one step, one day at a time.

Yes I've given and poured so much thought into it but no answer. God has ways to answer my prayer but not just yet. In that time of prayer, god reminded me of this verse,

Matthew 11:28-29

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

That though I may be burdened with a heavy load, he will give me rest. I've been lacking good rest lately, now its is really time for me to desire God and seek him with all my heart so that he may give me rest and give me strength to carry and lift my burdens so that they may one day not be burdens anymore but blessings!

Yes blessings. God gives us these burdens so that we may grow. Step by Step. So don't see them as road blocks and try to go around them but instead as a challenge. A challenge that we can overcome in our walk with God.

Its really been very painful for me. Talking to a couple of people the past few days have allowed me to set things into context and push it further and given me answers. Though I may not say what these burdens are, but hear this, it may be a very spiritual post going out to everyone but the message is clear!

When you are faced with problems and troubles, have FAITH in yourself and KNOW your limits. REST to gain strength and STAND and face your problems with ALL your HEART. DO NOT RUN AWAY and AVOID the problem all together. It may be hard but not impossible.

IMPOSSIBLE is a special word! WHY?

Break it up and it reads....

I'm Possible!

A Level Bomb!

2008-07-03T18:38:00.001+08:00

Haha not a literal bomb duh! I hope government officials don't come storming to my door to do something to me =X

Yeah A levels up and coming Chinese Orals ^^ I hope I am able to do my best for it so wish me good luck!

Ahhh I've been so busy these past few days been feeling very far from God, my friends and myself for some reason. I have faith that I will be climbing back up the ladder and picking myself up =) Its been such a great week for me though its tiring XD I've still to type my letters XD So Sorry gals =X

Yeah and I wanna congrats Pei Ying!!! For no particular reason just that I am really happy for you =) Though I do not really get what you meant by those verses =X

Lisabeth take care yeah? I'll be praying for you hope everything gets better and we meet again soon!!!

Chin Boon and the rest of my class XD Hope the jitters will fly away from you hehe =)

Nothing much for me to blog about yet. Not in the thinking mood. I've just been very very tired. Some reason or another, feeling very drained. O well I hope it gets better and my headache goes away =)

If you're down or anything, this wolf will be most glad to chat with you =) SMS, or Call or I call you if you want, demand me to come on to MSN or whatever ^^

Here always, Smiling always, the trait of this HowLing Wolf =D

See ya!

Not Sleepy

2008-06-27T03:09:00.001+08:00

Yeah its way way early and I have my chem paper in about 5 hours time? I just can't seem to get myself to bed.

I had a one hours worth of quiet time. It was just amazing how time flies so fast. I really felt much better after that. But guess what feeling much better didn't help much when it comes to sleeping.

I guess I won't talk about my dilemma too much for now. I'll save that for later.

Well its a Friday and I am having my last paper soon. JC common tests are really tough especially if you've been out of practice -.- DUH!

GP was so-so I still need to get the hang of the papers, Chinese was (DON'T ASK), geography was alright didn't study rocks and it came to haunt me =( Human geography questions have high weight-age of marks for certain questions but it seems to me that those questions are really tough =( Math was yuck, lack of practice caused me to die. Every time I do a question midway i get stuck =( Boo Hoo Physics today was like OMG freaky tough... I need more more more practice! COnviction!!!

Now let me get really deep...

The reason why I've been having such a hard time sleeping, I believe that I feel the burden for the people around me. I worry a bit too much, I start to over think on how to help them. I really hope all my Juniors are doing alright with O's when some of them just had their MT Orals done and completed. My best friend, Lisabeth is also having tough times with her stuffs, I pray that it gets better at home for you =)

School is really bugging me... I don't know if I should start to connect to the school. THinking about influence aNd making something happen. I want to do that in YTSS because I WANT to, for SAJC I feel like it but its just not the same. So so many things running through my mind right now...

Send me on a guilt trip right now and i'll feel the same because i've ridden the ride just so many times. But one thing will always put a smile on my face. I know that one thing is the pleasure when I am out with the people I care about. I just want to be happy and bring happiness.

Gosh... I feel like i'm just ranting and raving too much. Time for me to try to get back to sleep i guess =\

I truly wish all my friends a pleasant week ahead. I've been praying for all of you =)

For everyone working hard out there I leave you with a quote from a book i loaned XD

It is not how many hours you put in but how much you put into those hours

Attitude sets things right. In everything you do, do it with the right frame of mind. Put in your all and you will receive equal.

The Howling wolf is heading to bed. Does the moon ever hear my laments? Not lamenting right now, so I don't know XD

My first papers...

2008-06-23T00:30:00.001+08:00

Yep its my first ever Mid Year Exam Since last year! Duh...

Its my first ever Mid Year Exam in SAJC! But they don't call it mid year examinations.

Common Tests they call it.... =\ Doesn't give me much excitement =X Not been really focused XD

After Service on Saturday, went to Marks and Spencer to study =)

Did three chapters of physics? ABout there.... I know that Joane (Is that how its spelt? Or Joan... err Nvm) I shall confirm with the names thing again, but I do know it one N XD

OKay let me continue, she was "ahem" I stress the word. Really nice to come site with this strange wolf kid at the table. You know... She doesn't really know me neither do I know her much. Anyway... Let me cut the crap...

Had a bad coffee day... Yucks... Then just started talking about the most random of things XD Got to know her just that a lil bit better! Now now lets talk about.... Studies...

Went out on sunday which was not too long ago to study... Hmm well to relax really but I did just read up a bit on GP and did more Physics XD I think I am gonna for go math AGAIN this test... *Sighs*

Then went to catch a movie... Like finally! Then ate and ate so much stuffs... burger... fries... youghurt... Doughnut... Chicken... more doughnuts.... hmm

Had quite an alright time =)

Now lastly let me dedicate this post to my bestie =)

It will be hard for us to keep in touch =/ But we'll do our best! So stay strong and if you're reading up until here I just wanted to say that this wolf can't wait to meet up again!

Will post a longer entry and reply the tags next time =D for now let me just get rest. Its gonna be one heck of a long long long day later....

Take cares to all!!! CYA around people! Sorry i've been kinda hard to contact over the holidays =) My sincere apologies!!!

Now good night!

Flying posts Everywhere!

2008-06-18T03:26:00.008+08:00

O My Gosh... Yucks to me =( I wanted to blog blog blog but i slogged slogged slogged...

So much for updating my blog regularly...

It has been such a blast since my last blog post which to me was EONs ago =X

Let me just cut to the chase right?

I think I just want to first blog about church camp =)

It was really the most exciting experience for me during church camp. HIGHER DEEPER WIDER was the objective of Camp Oasis!

I indeed have gone that much higher deeper and wider i believe and I know that SAJC CG have taken just so much from this camp. How you ask? Let me just share with you my very own testimony of the camp.

I came to the camp with 3 objectives. To grow in my faith (that's one), To be a better steward of my time (number two!) and lastly to bond with my care group mates!!!

I only have one word to describe the camp. Priceless. I remember Jon Tay saying if every time he paid $130 and get such an experience with God then he would gladly do it.

I just want to say that yeah its true but only if it were that simple. So much hard work, effort and preparation has gone into this camp I can't say that $130 could even measure what our church leaders and camp leaders have done to make this camp such a success.

Now let me backtrack in time to Day 1 in camp. 9th June 2008

Had a very rough morning with well someone I shall not mention because I don't think it will be nice. Her initials are here PY. Such a big decision for her to make but I do hope I see her around in hope =) Will not elaborate any further. Anyway, I went to get Jon Tay's ATM card and then headed down to downtown east! For games com prep, the day ran smoothly and I was very delighted with the food and all that but now like i said earlier lets cut to the chase.

Camp impacted me in so many ways. Here is what happened come Day 1

It was Pastor Shirley on the stage if my memory still serves me right and during altar call we were all posed the question and what we should give up. It took me just so much effort to open up to the care group but I am so glad that I told everyone that I've been leading a double life. Now i'm bridging both lives together and I will repent and stop all the lies which till now I have yet to get out of my system. It was just such an impactful first day that I just sat down outside of the room just thinking about it so so hard.

Then Day 2 was Pastor Jeff and his powerful 11 point teaching. I never ever thought that I would get impacted so much by it.

1) Integrity and Humility

God's word just affirmed me so much through the teaching and what PJ said really was just too much for this wolf to handle. Two characteristics mentioned were integrity and humility, it moved me so much that yes I had to stop all the bluffs just to prove myself? No there is no need to do that.

Look I tell all of you now! Everyone out there right now if you are trying to show off next time... DOn't! WHy? SImple because it proves nothing! Show them what you are made off! People don't come to you because you have 4A's, people don't flock to you just because you are the nations top sportsman. People look up to you for who you are inside not the outside and there is no need for anyone to use their achievements to sell themselves to anyone! People can see what kind of person you are through your actions so I tell all of you now. Look before you leap, think before you act.

The second point that I could take from this was the fact that people indeed do lead double lives. Why can't we be who we are all the time? At home you become person A, in church you are now Person B, in school you are person C.... What is going on with this world? Must we change our character just to suit our environment? No! We should be who we are! We are people of christ! There is nothing to be ashamed off! If people want to shun away from you just because of this then so be it. But know that you must not hate them for it, have faith that one day they will come to understand their purpose in life just like how we have. DO not be ashamed of yourself! Live a life of transparency, of honesty, of truth!

2) Faithfulness

The only thing I could say when PJ talked about this was AMEN.

It just hit me so hard the point about faithfulness... It tugged at my heart... SO much i cried.

I asked myself so many questions, so many things. Have I been faithful in my walk with God? Have I been faithful to my family? Have I been faithful in my life? Have I been faithful to my friends? Have I been faithful to myself?

HAVE YOU?

So many things were just running through my mind, just so many... Now that I am calm and its 2am in the morning, Let me just give my own take on faithfulness.

Let me first look at the word FAITH What does this mean to you? If you check out the dictionary, it would say...

great trust or confidence in something or someone

Which I believe holds true... But the question is not to whom we should have faith in, but I believe that the question is why do we have faith? Simply put, would you have faith in someone or something if that person is incapable? If you ask most people, No will be the answer you will get.

But look here, people are just so blinded by what they see, by what they hear, by what they know.

What about the things you don't see, you don't hear, you don't know!

Faith is about believing!

Why do people not have faith?

Let me use a simple story =)

A biblical one

One day a 6 year old was sitting in a classroom. The teacher was going to explain evolution to the children. The teacher asked a little boy
TEACHER: Tommy do you see the tree outside?
TOMMY: Yes.
TEACHER: Tommy, do you see the grass outside?
TOMMY: Yes.
TEACHER: Go outside and look up and see if you can see the sky.
TOMMY: Okay. (He returned a few minutes later) Yes, I saw the sky.
TEACHER: Did you see God?
TOMMY: No.
TEACHER: That's my point. We can't see God because he isn't there. He just doesn't exist.

A little girl spoke up and wanted to ask the boy some questions.The teacher agreed and the little girl asked the boy
LITTLE GIRL: Tommy, do you see the tree outside?
TOMMY: Yes
LITTLE GIRL: Tommy do you see the grass outside?
TOMMY: Yessssss!
LITTLE GIRL: Did you see the sky?
TOMMY: Yessssss!
LITTLE GIRL: Tommy, do you see the teacher?
TOMMY: Yes.
LITTLE GIRL: Do you see her brain?
TOMMY: No.
LITTLE GIRL: Then according to what we were taught today in school, she must not have one!

"FOR WE LIVE BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT"
- 2 CORINTHIANS 5:7

Drag mouse from here to...

Even if you can't see it, it doesn't mean it's not there!

... HERE

Let me tell you friends, I am not being overly biblical here, so don't skip this part.

This is a message going out to everyone. I am not asking anyone to believe right here right now that there is A God, there is Jesus.

This message is one that says, recognise the person, recognise his ability. Do not look down on a person just because he has done nothing that you deem commendable. Recognise a person for the potential that he has. If you don't give him a chance, how can he show you what he's made of?

Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Just think about it.

Why did just the word Faith speak to me so much? Because I believe that it is so important in my life and it is lacking in many areas of my life. I say to all now that we must have faith and I will show to all that I will have faith! But having faith isn't the end of things...

What about being faithful? If I could, I would type out a whole speech on why we should be faithful to this... To that... to the other...

But it will just bore all of you. Being faithful to something is giving all your support to a cause, your support to a person no questions asked. Its just like love in a way. Unconditional love, no strings attached. You will in all your power and all that you can support that person! Not just to follow but fully support!

Now I challenge all my readers that now you know that faith is to believe, is to trust and to be faithful is to give your fullest support, ask yourself have you been faithful to yourself? To your family? To your friends? To the things that really matter to you? Or have you placed your faith into something which is absolutely unnecessary.

Wow do you know now, I am really really tired =X Nonetheless I'll persevere on!

3) The Great Commission!

What I really want to talk about is my vision.

It really suited the camp theme OASIS!

Yes it truly did! When Pastor Jeff taught us about endowments, I prayed for a vision. The great commission was something that struck me in the vision. I saw a flowing stream of water down a mountain, spreading out like a fan in all directions. Then it all ended up to the Sea.

What it tells me is that WE should all stretch out our hands and reach as many people as possible and with this collective effort WE WILL all reach our final goal the SEA. Rings a bell to anyone of you? It does to me.

God once again affirmed me through the Teaching. As Pastor Shirley shared her vision that she received a long time ago, I teared... She then posed us the question, what if the GC is completed within our lifetime. Will we change the way we lead our lives? A vision about eh GC a teaching about the GC. What more could I have asked?

Camp was just such a powerful experience for me. Nothing in my life can compare to it. Nothing. (As of yet)

With this it concludes my post about the camp. I would live to type more but my brain is failing me now as its 3 o clock now =X I leave you with some amateur-ish pictures from my phone.

DO you see what I saw?

CG 08!!!

Our dinner table ^^

Random stuffs

GO AJC!!!!

You'll never guess (NOT!)

You need cactus in a dessert right?

That was all about Camp.

I Have so much much more to blog about but still I must not make this post any longer than it already is.

Let me blog about my yesterday =) Met Jon Tay for Shepherding, before that had a game of badminton with Kenny and Caleb. This was how God answered me after camp. I asked him to challenge me, I challenge me he did. I shall not say how but I will reveal it sooner or later just give me a tap and i'll gladly tell you how.

But what really is etching on my mind right now is what JT asked me today.

Why did I become a Christian?

I think everyone will come to a point in their life to stop and say, why did i do this, why did i do that? Now why did I become a Christian? What made me accept Christ? Why only now? Questions that will linger and I've thought about it and still I cannot come up with a concrete answer.

But hear me out because I am sure of something. I have not regretted it at all.

Now back to the question... I think it was just my calling, to accept Christ. It wasn't because of peer pressure but I think it was because I wanted something. I wanted a calling. I seeked that thing that was missing. I believe and I put all my faith in Christ because I have finally found him. I wanted him. I don't know if this is a good enough answer because I am just typing this as I go along.

Now with all the commitments that I will have to make... I must learn to balance and now its so so late already, I have an answer to another question Jon Tay posed to me today. I shall not type it out but God really gave me that answer as I was re-reading all the past teachings I have already gone through. It was the verses and the teaching entitled.

Relationship Between Leaders and Members

1 Timothy 5: 17-21

I was on the train when I decided to flip to my foolscap pad and copy this down while on the MRT and it became clear to me. It was just that simple. So if either Jon Tay or Hsiao En you are reading this, My answer is yes. I will and I shall find the balance in order to bring glory to the KOG! Let me bring my life to a whole new level and not stay on gear one. Its time to step it up.

ARGH! Multiple Titles!!

2008-06-04T13:15:00.001+08:00

Yes ARGH! I have so much of an urge to blog! over the past few day's i've been keeping so much back in the deep dark part of my brain so that i may find that chance to blog about it!!!! Now here I am! Trying to balance between the jumble of thoughts, music blasting in the background and finally workload!!!! PW! Holiday assignments! etc etc!

Guess what i decided to stop the music just for a moment and stop my sms-ing for quite some time so I can blog my thoughts all out!

- Music: The Feeling by Kutless (To know that you're alive) Latest release! -

Yeah I love the new album! I wanna get it! I really really wanna get it! I'm going to change my music playlist very soon right after this. Anyway.... Let me get back into my blog post =D

So many amazing events have happened! Just so many! First of which is Pre Uni Sem which was just just just over in my eyes. Its a wednesday but I still can never forget what has happened over the five days. I'm beginning to think that I am just making PUS over rated!

This blog entry will have multiple titles... First of which... MEMORIES

I truly cannot forget the times we've all had XD (I'm thinking overrated thoughts again =X) Seriously! I shall not rave too much abt PUS but just for starters let me tell all of you that our outing has the green light! Cafe is under-renovation now and probably it should be ready by then! I'll be praying really hard! and discounts! Not set yet but definitely there will be =X Haha all thanks to my Dad ^^

Now going back to the first agenda of the day. Memories... It isn't just about PUS but i've been getting a lot of blasts from the past recently. Like how i decided to read back into my blog posts and realised how the memories are very very important to me. I still remember that one episode of EVERGREEN i posted about sometime back. About memories.... So much treasure in our mind just waiting for that key to unlock.

What I believe is that we never forget... NEVER! We just need to find the key to the stash... sometimes however, we may lose that key and it gets really hard to unlock the lock... So i really urge everyone today! keep ur key's well! Keep it in pictures, online, in the form of words! Anything possible don't ever lose them. EVER.

Next up on this blog post I have sth called The CLICK FIVE concert!

Yeah!!! Haha! I went for the concert and it really was quite the fun stuff!

Yeah ^^ It really was a blast with The Click Five showcasing some of their new songs I thought it was fab and probably going to get their new album! Went to meet my phone buddy XD then trained to bugis and shopped for a while. =) After that met Alexia at Kalling and brought the both of them on a huge ride -.- sorry gals... Huge ride meaning that we walked!!! Gosh! All my fault that we missed the opening video... =( I had a fun time there so thanks for the invite Alexia!

After the concert bused to Marine Parade for no reason what so ever XD then got Starbucks which was so yummy! After that I bused to douby and after that was a train ride home. =D Had a super fun time there so thanks all!

Last but not least, let me talk about God.

Yeah it was just really amazing how he has touched me over the few days. Today being a wednesday, Monday was when I unlocked my tongue =D and then Pei Ying contacted me and we just smsed for a bit subsequently so many things have happened and i've been praying for all of you! All that i've connected so much with over the past few days. I do hope that all of you can be a testimony to the greatest of the LORD as well. I think i blogged my heart out already now whats left is to reply to the tags and post cat pictures ^^

All of this happened in one day ^^ four cats actually but the other two was captured in bad lighting =X WTH here goes nothing...

REPLY TO TAGS

Gosh I have tons of tags to reply!

1) Thanks to all that read my post about the book! Loan it to me!!! If not I just wanna buy it for keeps!

Jaslyn! SOrry!!! PW is now on the top of my list now!!! Meeting on sunday right! Yeah!!!

Xing Yi! Haha thanks i'm feeling better already! And haha yeah I guess it was late for the both of ya as well =X

Li Min... Hmm Thanks! but I don't think i'll be seeing ya all on friday =(

Simply put! Pre University Seminar 2008!

2008-05-30T23:04:00.001+08:00

Well lets start off with what the Seminar was supposed to teach me...

raise participants’ awareness of the concerns and aspirations of diverse groups of Singaporeans, the challenges and opportunities facing our nation, as well as how our landscape, lifestyles and mind sets should evolve in response;
provide opportunities for participants to examine and suggest how Singaporeans can effect change and transform their lives and those of fellow citizens;
allow participants to gain new perspectives and knowledge through exchanges with political, industry and community leaders, and amongst participants themselves; and
engage participants in special activities that challenge them to exercise teamwork and resourcefulness as they collaborate on projects designed to give these students from different institutions the opportunities to network and bond.

Sounds very errr "Chim" Huh?

Well this 5D4N camp was really the best thing that could ever ever happen to me EVER! I would have to agree with the PUS objectives but what really happened was that I totally underestimated the PUS. Never would I have thought that I would have so so much fun! It totally blew me away and I am surely most happy that I was allocated to Seminar Group 15. Go SG 15! I couldn't ask for a better deal. You all made my time there worthwhile.

Credits to... *drum roll*

Alex (ACJC)
Azim (IJC)
Bernice (MJC)*
Cheryl (TJC)
Corraine (TPJC)
Daniel (NUSHS)
Grace (HCI)
Jody (PJC)
Jonathan (HCI)
Kala (TP)
Kar Yee (MI)
Kaster (NYP)
Kee Chen (MJC)*
Kuang Wen (NYJC)
Malique (MJC)
Osman (CJC)
Rachel (RJC)
Sharmila (TP)
Syazana (VJC)
Vincent (NP)
Wei Xian (AJC)
Wei Liang (TJC)
Xin Wei (MJC)*
Yi Ling (VJC)
Yusoff (RP)
Zhen Ye (JJC)

I hope I got all your Schools and names spelt correctly. I Hope I didn't miss out anyone! Special Mention to the people with the * they are SG 15 very own Student Liason Officers (SLO's) It was just so fun!!! Thanks to all of you, these 5 days have been etched into my memory forever.

PRE UNIVERSITY SEMINAR 2oo8

Time to Recap and post pictures!!!!

DAY 1

Headed to school via the train =) Guess what with my big bag of luggage I had the biggest urge to treat the train like my very own. Guess what... I kinda did do that XD

Yep! Those are my two bulky bags and my blazer hanging in the train =X Of course I was trying to be as courteous as possible!!!

Reached school got some kind of a lecture from Mr Casey Leong and then Mr Moses Tan asked us to enjoy ourselves and got snapped at by Mr Leong and he gave all the Pre U Sem participants specific instructions NOT to enjoy ourselves =(

Well reached NTU in a very small and cramped bus... Believe me 25 people can fit in one of those small buses... I didn't believe it but.... guess what.... Believe it! We fit.

Went to my room to find out that I stayed in a single room was excited and first, then sad, then I didn't care much =X Greeted Yusoff and Danial who are my floor mates both from SG 15 ^^ O yeah and here is a picture of my room after all my stuff has been unpacked. =D

Well pictures do speak a thousand words so here is my room ^^

Headed out for Team building where I got to know so many new people and just played the usual and the not so usual ice breaking games XD Had a break for tea then another break for dinner =D

Look at my chicken during tea time...

That looks like some baby cockroach!!!! Yuck! and i realised it only after i took a bite out of the chicken. Lucky for me I didn't take a bite out of the roach... Phew =X

Really cliqued with Azim (Zim) on the first day =) He really is a great guy!

Look at what he drew! We were in the lounge when both me and Corraine saw this...

Day 2

Official opening of the pre uni seminar! With Minister Balakrishnan as the GOH. I shall not bore you with any details but I quote from him that he said that Singapore's system does give a lot of opportunities however in this system us Singaporeans aren't well informed and thus we cannot get the different opportunities!

- Music: We looked like giants by Death Cab for Cutie -

Yeah so after that we had Tea reception =D Yeah I tell you! This Seminar fed us like pigs and gave us 5 meals a day =D Though I was complaining about the lack of water coolers around the campus =( After eating we headed to our first parallel presentation where NYJC, TPJC, SAJC and ACS(I) were to present their projects! Again I don't want to bore you with details but check this out... this is Zim's clip board.

Look at that!!!! Haha!!! Yeah he had that many pens for emergencies =D

Then here you have Rachel and Corraine trying their best to pull out a pen but to no avail. They had to acquire Jonathan's help to get the Pen out ^^

Then guess what! The stolen pen was used to draw this!!!!

Yeah the both of them were that bored ^^

So after all that presenting it was time to begin the digital chase!!! Where it was high tech amazing race style and I volunteered to carry the laptop all over the campus while running! My hands were super aching after the whole race! Was leading the SG at the start with Azim because I had to setup the laptop ASAP and then towards the end I decided to rally the back of the pack and cheer them on!

At the end, the last leg of our race, The SLO's, Corraine, Malique and I got separated from the had no idea where to go and that was really funny as we climbed up and down many staircases trying to find the SG. We finally headed to the last part and completed our mission!

Here and some pictures =D

This was one tough place to get to. We were at Level 1 and then guess what this floor is named Basement three because they cut the slope and this is now really low. So the whole lot of SG 15 had to climb who knows how many flight of stairs XD

Then here we are all trying to figure out that clue which in the end turned out to be Chirp and another three words.

Ran round the whole NTU campus and reached the pond our final task. Which was to find this bottle and we took ages to find it and I was kinda lost and didn't know how to even get that because I was separated (refer to above)

This was that bottle which was at some tree near the pond XD

And guess what? SG 15 was the only one in our task group to find the bottle!

Our Prize!!!! YEAH!!!!

Pump pump pump it up! Pump the fifteen Spirit up!

Chocolate!!!! Yeah we had a whole whole whole package of Choco!!!! Yums!

That was really the highlight for Day 2

Day 3

The highlight for that day wasn't really much =X it was just Breakfast --> Presentation --> Q&A --> Tea --> Panel Discussion --> Lunch --> Sand castle challenge (prep) --> Tea --> Movie time! --> Dinner --> Freshen up --> SUpper

That night was bridge night! We all played bridge and we chatted till like 0230 the next day. Here is a lil sth sth

I wasn't the only guy there FYI but it really was fun talking to all of them ^^

Day 4

Gosh you know what? Its the last night we'll all be able to chat and have fun with one another =(

Its a similar routine as day 3 just that we had a highlight for day four. That was the Sand Castle building challenge! Just pictures and most of them are done by us JC/poly students!!!!

Great right? Our city of sand! Gosh I can't believe its all over.... Stayed up late on this last night teaching people how to play Texas Hold'em

Day 5

I really miss all of you now... It being Day 5 and I being at home and blogging this... I am so missing ur company... I couldn't sleep in the afternoon but now I am feeling very exhausted (standing behind a bus) -.-

I just wanted to tell all of you that I am looking forward to all of you coming to meet again at coronation plaza for dinner! I've asked for a discount and it is successful! I shall keep the rest of the blog post to pictures and the rest to memory.

For each and every one of you have made a mark on this wolf's life. You shall never be forgotten.

Here is the wolf signing out and hoping that even with just 5 days or less in knowing each other....

Our cheers, our songs, our jokes, our claps and our personality...

We never wither, never falter and we'll be together...

let us all make this a reality that can last an eternity.

- A tribute to SG 15 Pre-University Seminar 2008 -

Heading out!

2008-05-26T10:53:00.001+08:00

Heading out for Pre-U Seminar Now won't be using the com much so don't miss me =D

If ya sms me I'll probably see it at 8 plus =)

From the Howling Wolf

Back in time... Time... Time...

2008-05-26T01:13:00.001+08:00

Let me start off with the past =D I DO really need to blog about it ^^

I left off at... 22 of may... So... here goes something *sound effects* *light effects* tada!

23rd May 2008

Well it was the last day of the term for SAJC and it is in tradition for the school to make it a half day where well... we can enjoy ourselves b4 coming back for holiday classes =(

I was late on that day =( Saw Bertina on the train as she was making her way to school =) Talked for a bit and then said bye bye.

Well at least it was a short day for school and guess what the Principal treated the whole school to cornetto ice cream!!! YEAH!!! Here are the shot from that day ^^

Our ticket for redemption!

Look at Javier Calling Sze Wee *Come here!*

Then! Lets eat! So sweet right?

(The ice cream i mean)

Emo MX!!! Haha! Looking at the Soccer people ^^

Yeah that was my day in school after that I chugged down to vivo and bugis later with Ibrahim to do a lil shopping ^^ haha It was not too bad =D Thanks dude for keeping me company!

24th May 2008

Saturday! Slepted quite a lot then after that headed to turf city skipping breakfast =X

Reach the Sushi restaurant at about 1135 and started the mass ordering XD

I didn't take any pictures but... I spent 30 dollars for a free flow everything =D

Sashimi, Yaki Tori, Hand Rolls, Fried beef/fish/chicken/pork, Tempura, Sushi, soup... all I can eat yums ^^

Ate till my hearts content with my mom and aunt =D

After that bused down to Toa Payoh b4 heading to somerset. Went to look for the toilet to do my business b4 meeting Yu Jun and Kai Yang so that Yu Jun can write his card to Jillian. He wrote it late lo!!!

Then went for service and God did speak to me as I prayed and expected from him. With Shirls teaching about fasting but more importantly what hit me was about SELF CONTROL which i seriously lack... From my phone bill to my addictive habits... =(

A new change a new spark within me!!!

Kai Yang accepted Jesus! We got 4 guys now!!! Thank god for Yu Jun for bringing him and congratualtions Kai Yang ^^

After Service I headed for dinner with the rest of the CG and was frantically trying to get a table... Too bad we had to split our CG dinner between two tables... I think that was the very first time =( Nonetheless it was still alright. Talked to Kai Yang for a bit =) Then suddenly he bolted off cus he saw his ex schoolmate and was shy? After some crazy chasing around, we caught up and just parted ways with KY and YJ cus they had to go off.. Leaving me to become the only guy left again XD

Went to Istana Park to sit and play games... I can't pick Wolf next time... Howling is just too easy... Woofing is also easy... and irritating =( We played JT "deh nah nah nah" game with some of the SR/NY group =X Guess who got the forfeit =D

Cute flower? He was trying to impersonate a flower =D Go flower butterfly!!!

Then headed off the carls junior for 3 kings and trained back home with Xing Hang (I Hope spelling is alright) Had a very very nice chat with her and by doing so i was affirmed once more on my walk with God and that he is worth it and the great commission is really something to work for!!!

25th Sunday 2008

Im blogging late so this is really about today! Went to malaysia for a trip and bought like 200 dollars worth of apparel and stuffs.... Ouchy thanks mom!!!!

Got Skinny jeans on the requests from a special someone =X

Anyway had fun today and now I am really really tired... So I shall not talk about my shopping much seeing that I had already typed so.... much...

O yeah that special someone, I just wanted to say that you can do it! Be a lil bit more optimistic! One small step can go a long way!!!!

Lastly

I wanna blog about my emotions right now... It has been numbed by all the typing already but... still its there...

Remember my blog title? Time... time.. time...

That truely is the blog title for today....

I feel so much about something that I am holding back just because I do not want to ruin anything... It is just I thought it always has been two way... but now I feel that it is just one... What should I do? I always ask.. what should I say... I keep thinking... NOw the question that lingers on the most... Is it worth the time.... No harm trying? Well there is always harm on both sides... I don't wanna see another one disappear. =( I feel sad right now..

GOing off to bed like now! Gonna pass something to people tmr =)

Good night everyone.

I believe you...

2008-05-22T22:24:00.001+08:00

Joanna Fung is the envy of many girls: She studies at a top Junior College, has a girl-next-door look and has good results. However, deep on her heart, she holds a secret: She believes that she has a curse. She believes that every bad thing she said will come true.

Jacky Wu is an ideal price charming: He is good in his studies and has girls waiting to hold his hand. He smiles every few minutes and often cracks jokes. However, he, too, holds a deep secret.

When their paths crossed, an unexpected romantic love story takes place...

Im officially addicted to this author and hope his other books will not disappoint me. I went to this internet site and just started reading the book. Sadly they only allow the preview for half the book... Guess what... being a most crazy book fanatic, I am probably gonna order it because that is the only way for me to get hold of a copy...

- Music: Only Love by Trademark -

This music was also from the book. Well it was mentioned and I was reminded of it and I realised I liked that song a lot.

How about now I give my own view about it. About believing in people...

I believe you... Is something that we won't really say in our every day lives. What we all want is to be trusted, but in order for us to get that trust, we would have to earn it. It is only in that manner can we say or hear the three words... I believe you.

Somehow when ever I hear these word... I tremble with fear... I don't know why... Maybe its because I lack the trust in my life?

Yet it pains me to think that way...

Sigh... Simple ramblings of the wolf... A wolf who thinks he lacks some trust in his life...

A wolf missing his friends... wanting to help them just like Jacky... Not just one... But as many... Because this wolf has fallen and risen from the depths of darkness once. That is why... I want to extend that paw as far as I can.

A howling wolf... Does the moon ever hear my laments...

Let me be the light... that shines in your darkest hour...

Moonlight Shadows...

Infinity Atmosphere...

A simple long post!

2008-05-21T22:07:00.001+08:00

Its been ages since i've last posted on my blog XD

I've been just too too tired to really do anything at all =X Yes that is amazingly true =\ (NOT!) I have most nights normally half completed my work and just tossed and turned in my bed and suddenly dozed off to sleep =X

Well thats not really why I want to post this post of mine. Lets take the wolf's time machine just like all the other posts before this.

17th May 2008

Very simply put it was a day of impact for me =O

Yes, Morning I had to totally rush off the school on a Saturday begging Ms Sin to not let the bus leave so soon =X Yes people I was late for a Pre University Seminar Meeting. I was so lucky Mr C. Leong wasn't there to point a gun at me and shoot me right there on that very spot. *Bang* Spent something that seemed ages over at the NTU looking through the Pre U Sem file and just listened to the briefing which in truth was very long and almost redundant.

What impacted me at the NTU the most was one of the Canteens which had a very cheap subway outlet and i devoured my cold cut trio and drink happily ^^ (That was after I gobbled down the Chee Cheong Fun at the reception buffet) XD Let me show you the OCK at NTU! It was so cool!

Yea! High class huh?

Anyway after that I had to rush off once more for service XD Yeah and I was glad I made it there and would always remember that service. For the words that PJ and Raphel (I hope I spelt his name right) spoke really was =O A word from God which I prayed for that very service itself. I didn't expect it to come back to me in such a big way. It all circled around the topic of commitment and heart. Stayed out late that night... Got into a tiff with mom the next morning and well rochor is the best beancurd in Singapore. It really is!

19th May 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELITA!!!!

Well yep! It was Kelita's Birthday =D Hope she enjoyed herself ^^

Anyway, headed to the Sentosa just for a nice chill session b4 heading to meet church mates for dinner that night ^^ over all a very fulfilling day in terms of relaxing that is =D

I really did enjoy that Vesak day! I hope all of you did too!!!

20th May 2008

Yay! Back to school -.-

Short day... not really... Met Hwee Yee in the morning! Caught up with her a little bit ^^ then parted ways at the MRT

PE was up first! Played floorball with the class one heck of a game XD

After that was geog and what really was the highlight of that session was this...

You see the trail of water? Well simply put, water started leaking! and this wasn't because of the aircon =X

It was sweat! (Sorry Ibrahim =X) Yeah it was his sweat! Best way to lose weight! Sweat it off!!!!

After that I had to chugg down to Vivo City to get some formal wear... =\ Sucks!!!! The trip back was dumb ass purely irritating!!! Check this out....

This man shall remained unseen (his face that is) but... he is one heck of an irritating asshole... A "grown" man playing on the train with his two girl-friends.... making such a hug fuss on the train... they were trying to use their knuckles to hit each other forehead... Hm did i say they? I meant him... That fag... I was this close to ass kicking him!

21st May 2008

TODAY!!! Short day with a fantastic morning assembly!!! Truth! Tomorrow sch ends early because the whole of the JC1 cohort will be hitting the delta sports hall to support hockey!!!! YEAH!!! Nothing else to blog about today other then the fact that I was toying with the PSP during physics and got it taken away for a while... SOrry MX!

O yeah... just wanted to blog about a friend. I don't know if you will read this but Lisabeth (Highlight), I hope it all gets better =D Just gotta gain the trust back from your parents! Don't fret and be strong! You will pull through this! If you do need any help, I'll do my best to help you through it. (even though we live miles apart) *smiles*

NOW FOR SOME DUMB DUMB PICTURES

1) Photo taken with visualiser XD

2) Weng the terror-ist

3) Some doodle i drew on my paper =\

Now and lastly theres this baby bird on my window edge ^^ Been Chirping for quite sometime already. Here is a picture of it XD

Hmm i'll leave you with that then ^^ Night night!!!

Does the moon ever...

2008-05-17T00:51:00.001+08:00

I still remember the original title of my blog. If you've known me for quite sometime ago you may know this as well. Seems like today is a very down day for me. I won't want to spoil anyone's mood but the down side of me is usually artistic with me coming up with half a poem on my way home and now I plan to finish on my blog.

- Music: Amrita, Yui Makino (Tsubasa Chronicles) -

Bear with this post please. Too much to convey all in that book of mine.

This title...

Rowing with the Laments

I liken this journey to a trial out at sea.

I told myself I'll be prepared, whatever it may be.

The sea so calm, the sky so blue.

Not a minute passed, a storm's about to brew

Alone I sit, the adventure so new.

The comrades I've made, I just never really knew.

For all this time, I'm drifting out to sea.

Through all the good and the bad, I feel its only me

Its this darkness I feel, once again in my heart.

A feeling so deep, I can't bear to part.

For all the times of joy, sky so clear and bright.

Now I fear the darkness, the darkness of the night.

Why does it hurt so much,

if I can't bear to touch.

Why does it feel so bad,

I don't know if it'll end up sad.

These fears in my mind, I don't know how and where.

All I know its the unknown, the unknown I cannot bear.

I keep this feeling bottled deep inside.

As to whom should I confide?

I guess its better if I put it aside.

... Ever hear my laments.

Forgiveness

2008-05-14T19:40:00.001+08:00

Well its been quite some time since i've blogged. I guess its really due to me being sick and lazy and just plain... (insert word here)

Hmm I am not really sure why I decided to post this post but it really just came to me. I guess it's because of the past few days, i've been reminded time and time again that forgiveness is something I hold deep within my own life. Yesterday that word really affirmed me thoughts when it was brought up during the weekly CG meet. I guess its God's way of reminding me that maybe I should just blog my thoughts out.

I think I have posted the post on forgiveness before but... Does it matter? I guess not.

I remember that quite some time ago last year. I found myself in a state of turbulence. I had blamed myself for so many things. I found myself at breaking point. What I couldn't do is forgive myself. Guess what here I am, I got pass the past and I forgave myself.

Yesterday I remember that someone said that God is a forgiving and forgetful one. That just suddenly hit me yesterday. (No offence) But what I wanted to say out that day was that God did forgive but I do not think that he forgot. Just like how I still recall about what has happened so many months ago.

- Music: Bleeding Love; Leona Lewis -

Forgiveness.... To STOP blaming someone. To STOP getting angry with someone.

Yes that is what forgiveness is... TO STOP.

I guess forgiveness does indeed hold a special link to me. I have strived to forgive everyone and anyone who has crossed my path, made an impression, made an impact, just about everyone and anyone. I feel it so fulfilling to just keep people whom I know as friends, I find it so devastating if the people whom I have met before treat me as someone they do not wish to talk to.

I know many people hate it that way, but what I say to myself is that just because someone doesn't want to be your friend or (boy/girl) friend for that matter, you shouldn't harbour a deep hatred for that person. I guess in my heart, what I do is that I always leave it open. Leave a space for all my friends so that one day they can come back into my life as a friend. So that we can once again laugh, cry and talk to each other. That is to forgive.

- Music: Beautiful Seed; Corrinne May -

Guess what, I was about to end my blog post until this song started playing on my blog playlist (Yes I am listening to it right now)

A seed...

Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ' move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.

Matthew 17:20

I first read this verse and this question jumped at me. If one could say that people have so LITTLE faith, but yet say faith as small as a mustard seed is more than enough to do anything. Then it wouldn't make sense right?

I do not know how other people would look at this verse, but what I, personally, see in this verse is that you can have faith as large as an elephant but yet still doubt yourself, then you have no faith. What is key in faith is that you must have no doubts. Once you doubt yourself, or doubt someone else then your faith is as good as nothing.

Why am I talking about faith? Well it is the same with forgiveness. If you harbour that small amount of hatred, resentment, anger, disgust... Then you have not forgiven.

I think even I can't bring myself to forgive certain people, but still I am trying my best to forgive these people. I think what really drives me is the HOPE, the FAITH that one day, I wish for these people to return and come back into the life of the wolf. For I never forget, I forgive.

I remember these quotes...

Forgiveness is a rebirth of hope, a reorganization of thought, and a reconstruction of dreams.

To make mistakes is human. To forgive is divine. To forget... is stupidity.

I really think that forgiveness is truly a goal worth pursuing for.

I leave you with a part of the song that I am listening to now.

Beautiful Seed

Break the strongest fortress
Change the way the world thinks
You can build a bridge where foes can meet
Hope for the future
Shout it, don't whisper
Dreams are what we make of them to be
There is hope in every heartbeat
Tiny as it seems
You're a beautiful seed

I strive... forgiveness.

Rule number seven. Has just been born.

Think about it.

Tags replied

2008-05-14T17:10:00.000+08:00

The wolf 2

Jorene: No jacket yet.. but I wonder who I owe =X Barbeque!

Hsiao En: TYPO!!! SORRY CORRECTED ALREADY!!! XD

Joab: *growl* I am not dead!!!

Zi Yao: Haha wow? Nothing else to say? Thanks I know my blog is wow ^^

Bernice: Go ahead! I may be slow to reply though =X

Piggy: ??? Who is piggy ???

Haha meeting day!

2008-05-10T23:42:00.001+08:00

Wow I feel like blogging about my previous day's... But no i shall abstain from that!

Why? Cus I don't feel like recalling and messing up the blog post for today =D

Woke up late today -.- Yeah... Like very late =( I needed my sleep XD oops =X

Anyway went for service and all met Aldrich! Haha delayed my meeting with him and then delayed my meeting with Hsiao En -.- Just because I was rushing out from home =( So sorry people

Anyway headed to Isle to well look at people eat cus I had already taken my lunch =D

Then talked to Ald for a while and went to service *wide smile*

Service was really really great today, praise and worship!

The sermon by Pastor Jeff was really nice he teared while telling us about his mom who have kept all his letters to her since he was ye' high. Its was such a powerful memory that he teared.

O and during the announcements and all that, Jon Tay acted as Marlin! Nemo's Daddy =D

Yeah and well during prayer after sermon... To be frank I teared... I was very touched during that time. I can't tell you why. But I was touched =)

So glad I could come today and just listen.

Went to eat after that. Not really but well =D Hehe! I must learn to walk more closer to God I told myself today ^^ Starting tomorrow you'll see!

Then went to look for Celine with Aldrich cus she wanted to meet us after her Lit thing. Went for dinner again =X Haha! Took so long to look for her.... Talk talk talk and all that. Went home =D

Then chat chat chat!!! On the phone with Lisa for an hour plus plus? Really had a great time talking to a wonderful person ^^ Great day today!

Well night night everyone will post pictures soon! Once its uploaded to my com =D Just lazy now =X Thats all =D

Promise!

2008-05-05T23:39:00.001+08:00

Yeah I am getting a slight bit irritated because I am using the blog skin again... SIghs...

Just finished my work and going to start with math revision for the test tomorrow. =(

Today really was some topsy turvy day =\

Morning the bus came like 10 mins late? So in the end I had to run to get into the class queue in time. Now my left leg is all acting weird for some odd reason =(

After that GP... I can't even remember what we did! O yeah! That dumb assignment! I got like 4 out of a possible 27 -.- Being in debate doesn't help much... I need to get used to the way people write their answers... SIghs

Then I think it was math which was -.- Lost for words.... I'm totally dead in math due to the lack of practice! Dies tomorrow for sure I told Ms Faizah. She was like better score for the common test and FInals!

Geog was crappy... Nothing much to say other than how chemical weathering relates to coffee =X

Physics was like dots also cus I didn't bring my stuffs and had to share with Jaslyn and I was totally crapping during Physic lo

MT was the best! Crapped for 1 hour listening to Wang Lao Shi talk about his life ^^ I really like him loads. His lessons are always fun! haha then he had to spoil my last lesson by saying that I had to transfer class cus of my o level results -.-

Wow went home early today. Did work till now having some breaks in between for dinner and a little 30 min snooze.

Now Li Min just asked me how's life and I got inspired to write something out...

Well life for me now is just like a broken piece of glass. I see myself in the pieces, I see so many of myself. I just need to slowly piece the pieces all back together so that I only see one image. Glass edges are sharp, piecing them back together is hard. But I know when I finally finish it, I will like what i see =D

From the Howling Wolf.

D0es the moon ever hear my laments? Does anyone? Yes I believe so.

I must confess that I have not been opening up to God for the past two days. Excuses that I am tired is not counted. For when I seek him, he will give me rest, but why don't I seek him? I just don't know...

Reverted

2008-05-05T01:11:00.001+08:00

Yeah I reverted back to my old skin. Guess I was to lazy to do anything.

I promise i'll stop posting back dated post cus i forget most of the juicy details =(

Anyway let me just say that the links are up!

Also REPLY TO TAGS

The WOLF 2

Caleb: ^^ Linked! I'll read all the blogs soon. When I find the time to =X

Li Min: Thanks! Haha I will! Oasis Camp here I come!

Sophia: You mean australia has deprived you of that! WHAT!!!! Cats are sooo adorable, animals are just soooo nice! Mean aussie animals

Xing Yi: Tired... Yeah everyone is =(

Jaslyn: Yeah read above... im a lazy person =(

Jannah: yeah take that is nice ^^ haha Linked!

Rosherna: Med? Medicine? Im not crazy lo why you say im crazy?

Argh...

2008-05-04T18:10:00.001+08:00

OKay first thing is first... I've not blogged for a very simple reason... I didn't change my skin yet....

But now I am blogging because, I have the sudden urge to blog but yet no urge to change my blogskin =(

So why the urge to blog?

Well for one, to Thank God really! The few instances in the past few days that I can really testify for.

Taking the time machine again....

FRIDAY 2 MAY 2008

Had school till 1130!!!! YEAH!!!! I cannot go home though.... Dammit!

Yeah classes ended early on that day, Sadly I had mentoring =(

Sat outside the benches on the 3rd floor and just stoned, psp-ed and everything other thing not related to homework with MIng Xiang and Chin Boon.... Yeah stone there till 4:30 -.-

Went for mentoring ended at 6:30... Rushed off to Bus stop at the MRT station and bused to AMK to meet Jon Tay =D Had a very enlightening night that night and I really must thank him for all the things that he has done. Not just him but everyone from Y-hope, made my life so much more worthwhile.

SATURDAY 3 MAY 2008

Woke up early that day =\ Accompanied mum to her office so that I could do some work. Did a bit of work (Just a bit) then bused to Somerset to meet up with Hsiao En and TIffany. The rest of them came later. That aunty at the B1 cafe... I tell you terrible... Thinking that we were not going to buy anything, she started to rush us in ordering our food... Sighs...

Then it was off to nexus! You know what I must really thank God and mum for allowing me to have the opportunity to go for the Oasis Camp! Yeah $120 didn't come easy but I am so glad that mum understands.

You know that service alone... I felt so much energy... Just so much... By the end of the service, I was close to tearing. I don't know what go over me.... It was just really powerful. The atmosphere was very thick and it was all about leaders and members. I could just feel it that Saturday. I really could.

Had dinner that night at Le' Merridian. Wanted to get my mom lunch for next saturday but she didn't pick up her phone so I couldn't confirm anything and I decided not to get it... =( There's always next year!

After that I train-ed to AMK and bus-ed to block 500+ to eat some more =X Haha talked for a bit and then cold joke-ed with my cousins for a while. After at about 2330? Around then, it was playing cards cus we were just so bored. Then it became a double game with Tai Ti and Majong. Haha I was sms-ing Alexia at that time and well haha i was winning XD When she had to go sleep... I lost that last round of Majong. =X

Reached home at 2am haha then went to bed...

SUNDAY 4 MAY 2008

Going to do my blog skin now! Hope you like it!

Messed up? Messed down? LONG POST BEAR WITH ME

2008-04-30T22:24:00.001+08:00

Well ignore my crappy blog title. What I meant to say was that my day was quite messed up and was feeling down, but you know, I had a very nice end to the day today.

First off was school... Waking up this morning was one of the hardest thing today. Why? I just has ZERO energy to pick myself out from my bed. So I just lay there in my bed for 20 minutes before I managed to drag my zombified body from my bed to the bathroom. Took a shower and headed to the interchange and to school... etc.

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Then guess what the BRO's came first, since Mdm Hoh didn't turn up today thus PHYSIC LESSON CANCELED! Whoa after the boring math lecture today and all that doodling on my paper, was geography tutorial. Where once again... Mr Lian and his theory about the volcano in Singapore. You have no idea how much I was truely convinced after today. Looking at the geological rock structure of Singapore today, I AM CONVINCED that Singapore is part of the crater of an ancient Volcano.

After that he decided to talk to my class of 4 guys. (We combined class with A06) He told us, well me specifically that our contributions in the class (You know me the shout out answer kind of person) wasn't helping some of the people in A06. He wanted to concentrate on these students and wanted the class to speak up more.

TADA! Guess what! Our geography class now changes to Tuesday with a class size of 5!!!! OMG!!! (Another Girl from S15) Saying that we could engage in more discussions... Haha was really crapping during geography, was just being lame and poor berakah had to take all of it =\ (Hope I spelled it correctly)

Anyway, I went to take my math test, and guess what, this is really the first time I just stoned there because I totally forgot how to attempt the MI questions =( DIED THERE. Got 2/10.... -.- So glad Ms Faizah understood. So I promised myself to work really really hard from now on.

Then I Lunched at about 1040 =X Went to the com lab to just err stone? Whoa had a great laugh at Ming Xiang and Chin Boon who was totally playing 2p boxhead, after a while they like both got locked out of the com -.- Then they started Laughing XD

Math Tutorial was supposed to be my last lesson b4 heading to MJC. Was terrible there.... Just didn't have the mood because I had to take the Physics test on such a short notice. I thought my turn would be postponed... but guess what CL got the time wrong and this caused me to take the test less prepared. It was tough lo! and its 10% !!!!

Died there also -.-

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MJC was very container-ish (CL quote) classes air-conned (I think) saw the presentation for NY and T -- JC

Even more demoralised because our presentation had no.. err style. Very formal and lecture like =\

Then after that Mr Leong totally turned the whole thing around saying that we were playing safe and not going to embarrass ourselves but instead be the half way middle mark thing. So we all felt better. Hanged around in MJC for a while hoping to see someone I recognised. Talked the crap outta everything there. Had tons of laughs with the 100 out of 4 thing and many more XD haha Made my day much better dudettes thanks!

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Stupid 39 packed with people. Caused me to come home later... Had sashimi!!! OMG!!! Dinner was interesting XD

Went home rested till now and after my bath, I found all my stuff from the service! All the papers and writings!!! YES! Hope God will allow me to find my GC and Pencil Box =X I guess I need to do a bit of searching as well cus they won't just pop out of no where right?

Yay CG and holiday tomorrow!!!! OMG!!! Break TIME! Haha sorry slight rave there.

Anyway, im tired =X So I am just heading of to bed after going onto MSN for a while haha XD

GOod night From the WOLF!

Ahh a tired blog post =(

2008-04-29T23:45:00.001+08:00

Well I did say i'll post something today =\

So here goes something XD (sounds like my e-mail)

Well haven't really been posting much lately cus I'm kinda moody now whenever I get off from school. Everything just seems to set in and then its yuck yuck yuck. Thanks for the Tag Delfina =D I'll cheer up ^^

Well I guess i'll just start off with Saturday and when we all SAW all the people who went for that amazing Thai Camp. Yeah! It was real cool and even hearing abt it makes it all so!!!! XD I think I misplaced my notes again -.- I feel so.... terrible =( Anyway went to eat and supper at Swensens... Guess what b4 that Xing Yi decided to take my phone and.... This is the result...

Yeah so this is the stuffs XD Well it was Pastor Shirley's B'day on the Sunday! Well happy Belated B'day wish =X

Nothing much for me to post. I guess I am not really in the mood to do so... Just and still having a mass convo with the 4E6 people XD its all laggy now. My MSN that is...

Anyway here is just another picture for Rosherna who went Meow on my tag board. I saw the kitty on my way home from school. Almost clawed me when I was stroking it.

XD Laggy and stuff I promise I'll post better blog post next time! Gd NIGHT!

Sigh

2008-04-28T11:28:00.003+08:00

Bad mood today... Not in such a good mood the past few days... wanted to post tons of pictures of the return of the Y-Hope people from Thailand... anyway, I'll post it soon =)

Anyway just the replies to the TAGS

To Bellrarie: Haha Thanks for the TAG! ^^ Final Week of exams right? All the best!

To Jaslyn: Really? Dun believe!

To Jarrat: You and ur crisis core -.- haha still have time huh? Big O coming!!!

To Alexia: I... I MCQ get many correct =X NVM ur sure to do better!

The day of LIFE

2008-04-23T23:52:00.000+08:00

Well I think I'll start off with yesterday, it was the Tuesday when I well came back to school =D

Thinking that I most probably screwed up my Chinese test, guess what! I didn't really screw it, but instead I did much better then I expected =X Yeah which isn't a lot but I still did get a 49/100 which is a pass in JC standard... Which I still do not get XD (How is under 50% a pass?)

Anyway... Just some random item the guys found b4 the start of GP class.... TADA!

Do you see what is on Chin Boon's back?

Well.. just look at this,

Two big grown up boys trying to steal stickers! OMG LOL Yeah! Stickers!!! and more! You know its spongebob stickers!!!!

Lets move onto TODAY 230408

Well today was sports day for SAJC and we ran with the S15 girls in the 10 X 200m relay race. Its a Inter-CG (CLASS) race and 5 girls will run first then the 5 guys. We did our best and did not end up with anything... But.... We still did our very best! So good job to all!!!!

Well after that we were all in a crappy mood... With Jaslyn revealing those disgusting photo's of me! OMG so freaking gay-ish pictures... If these were circulated, I could just die. Another thing was when I went to buy a piece of mango. I bite into it and (PUI!) Yuck! It was totally gross! Sourish and no where near mango taste. So therefore my one dollar just grew wings and flew away =(

Ah then as all those exciting things were happening, Johannes was folding his paper stuffs (origami) and guess what! Out of an A4 paper (I think) he folded like 10 or so cranes all interlinked together. I thought it was really interesting =D Here's a picture of Ibrahim wearing the crown of cranes =D

Looking spastic there ^^

Haha just joking =X

After the whole event went to bathe and all, accompanied Weng to the ATM and back, left right center... whichever way then bused on the 853 to Yishun. Had quite a fulfilling nap there =D

Then went to meet some of my YTSS Peeps at KFC and popular-ed for a while b4 train-ing to Woodlands to head for the library as they studied for their upcoming test tomorrow. Talked with Charmaine into the night and it really was both enlightening and the day really set me thinking.

So happened that yesterday in CG gathering Debbie was just sharing about sharing. Haha complicated right? But anyway, today was a day when I tried to share just that little bit I know about the LORD. =D

Received an SMS from a friend at about ten-ish. What I really want to do is apologise for lying to you. After thinking about it for a while, I thought so much that I see what I've been bluffing. I don't want to go into the specifics but what I said was in hope that I could keep things neutral between friends and try not to get too involved in things. I myself was very messed up at that moment in terms of feelings and my own thoughts. So I thought bluffing my way through it was the best idea. Alas, I learnt it the hard way. I really do miss just talking to you and hope that this can mend. Even though you may not trust me as much as b4 I wish we could climb back to the same terms as we were once b4. Allow me to win back that trust so that once again we can just talk =D

Guess most of you have heard enough of my rants and raves. I am wishing every one a great night. Now its 00:20 the next day already. Nonetheless, I wish everyone a great week ahead. A friend, a howling wolf. Donovan.

Yay Pon School today ^^

2008-04-21T22:31:00.001+08:00

Haha NOT! Was just sick last night, who knows what came over me... Was just sick and feverish, so I decided that I needed a day of rest and TA DA! I got it =D

Lets take a step back in time cus I really really need to post a blog post about Saturday and Sunday just dying to post about those two days.

Saturday 19 April 2008

Well... service was really really enlightening and everything I could have asked for. I really really now understand what it all means to help, to offer assistance. As some of you know, or maybe that is what I myself think, I like to help people. I like to help my friends, all you have to do is ask and I'll gladly help. Boo... I just spent 10 whole minutes looking for the piece of paper which I've written all the things on... No matter that lesson will not disappear just because my notes is lost. That lesson will always stay with me, for that day was when God really spoke into me.

Service ended around 5-ish then went out with the AJC, NYJC, SRJC people (I think that was all the schools that were there) Had lunch at this parta place opposite Cuppage plaza. Had so much of a communication problem with the uncle there. But I was glad he did not get frustrated =D OMG I can't believe how insulting I was that dinner session. Xing Yi, I must apologise, don't take it to heart =D I was just joking kay? Who knows what got over me, asking her to roll in the mud =X

Headed to Dhoby Ghaut to play at the X-Zone where my hands apparently ached after two rounds of that basketball game thing. Daytona ended up tops and realised that the secret shortcut through the pit stop sucks if ur not on gear 4 top speed =X

After that we three kinged at Carls junior. With the free flow of drinks, we should play Three Kings there whenever we can =X

O look at this!

^^ It was on a CD

Sunday 20 April 2008

Sunday went to the temple to pay my respects. Ate at mac in the morning and made a mess of the jam =D LOOK!

Sorry I know I am not supposed to play with my food... But... =( I was really bored!

After that car-ed to the temple and talked with my cousin. Saw Bernice there =X Haha smsed her for a bit XD (Quite long argh we sms =X)

Anyway after that went for lunch and the SHOPPING! YES! Got the long awaited Beautiful World (Tour edition UK) by Take That! Was looking for shoes also... but... =( Anyway had a nice shashimi high tea kinda thing and then went home. Guess what.... thats abt when i feel ill =(

So sunday was just real nice for me =D O another picture about some pricing thing

The usual price is like... -.- Dots lo

Anyway I am juggling windows messenger now and better finish this post so... haha Gd night all! From the Wolf

Tired week

2008-04-19T05:08:00.000+08:00

Yeah it has been one heck of a tired week for me. Lack of sleep, tired during classes, trying to cram the homework =(

Nonetheless, I still try to get the computer working and post a blog post =D So here I am!

Danial doesn't want to wake up this morning. Well he doesn't want to get out of the house, so I am not going to the match unless I could like FLY there =X

Debaters!!!! They won yesterday! OMG!!!! Can't wait to see them or sth, I think I am entitled a Jacket costing me $24 dollars =O

Nothing much to post about since its still really really early... Got a few pictures though...

Look at this thing... Well it doesn't look like much but this was what happens when you need sauce but don't wanna order food at mac =P

Cool? hmmm Not sure what to say. Well, I took these picture when I was real bored. The bottom one looks like some restaurant dish don't you think?

Walked home yesterday and got this cat to pose for me (NOT!) Well it was just there and ^^ it was just a catty day for me.

P.S. Promise! I'll stay out longer the next time =D

Well well here I am

2008-04-16T01:55:00.001+08:00

Here I am OMG the song is soooo nice ^^

But that's not the agenda for the blog post....

Here I am once again in the middle of the night trying to stay awake to do my work =( Still have math left to complete and not forgetting chinese homework due thursday...

Well guess I really am in the mood for mugging now, but just afraid that I may have pushed my body a bit too far.

Like in today's PE... I was so angry! I could not overexert myself... my feet started to get heavy and knee kinda gave way... So i messed up my 2.4 =( I need to recondition my body and so i'll just take the NAPFA test again next week and clear that piece of shit test.

After that was geog and it was quite fun and i totally managed to stay awake the whole time. Talked about pimples and some other stuffs stuffs.. Brazilian fast food? Haha Yeah hope i can remember this in a few months time. It was a nice punch line XD

We had to have our lousy break interrupted by the dumb fire alarm and they had to have a fire drill... that bloody wasted ten minutes of geog lecture =(

Lunch was.... satisfying =D Had double double lunch after GP...

Physics was next.... I almost slept lah! BOO!

Then GP which i also almost slept until it came to discuss about some stuffs and Weng seemed to be the contributor of the day which was very very surprising XD

So like i said Lunch... again! Anyway sat down at the table (the round one) and then was starting to eat when Mr Moses Tan sat down with us because Chin Boon wanted to consult him =X SO our whole time was spent by eating and talking to him. He was actually quite an interesting person to talk to =D

Then it was PW where the template was sooo LIVERPOOL XD

Next up was to bus to TPY then bused again to SACG HQ had fun today and was all about commitment! It was very enlightening and I really really wished I dared blogged more about it... I've got readers who might just pounce on me if they found out =X SIGH...

SO many people getting sick =( Hope you all get better kay?

Its late... i better start getting back to work =D Night everyone don't get dark eye circles like me =X

Donovan, the dark eyed wolf.

Its late and i'm awake!

2008-04-14T02:30:00.001+08:00

Hahaha yeah it seems that I am going to try to push my body to the limits once more again. I up mugging! I have no motivation to do any Chinese homework =( I just finished my GP assignment and I am now going to attempt my Physics questions XD

Listening to Planetshakers now...

Sigh...

Wonder why I do not have the energy to do things over the day... I slept almost the whole day... Well i napped here and there and it all added up to time wasted. =(

Anyway, it seems that the debate motion is out... Its time to do some No tangible credit work. No questions asked from me. I still am going to do this motion. Guess what motion is it! *Drum roll*

This House believes that fairy tales are a negative influence on young children. We are opposing the motion!

Like.... WTH! What kind of motion is this... So guess what, here I am going to lead the mock proposition team in saying that fairy tales do indeed have a negative influence. =( Wish me luck!

Shuffle Quiz

2008-04-13T11:54:00.001+08:00

Ahh sorry for the late post about this quiz XD didn't feel like messing up the posts with a quiz.

Set your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question, use the song title as the answer.

Thanks for the Tag Rosherna =D

How are you feeling today?

Broken Wings - Tomoko Tane - Anime: Trinity Blood [Hmm... im not down... but im not up either...]

Will you get far in life?

I wanna go to a place - Rie Fu - Anime: Gundam Seed Destiny [Yes i wanna go to that place. (Refer to lyrics of song)]

How do your friends see you?

I run away - Britney Spears [I do?]

Will you get married?

Stand in the spotlight - Armour For Sleep [I'll get married in the spotlight =O]

What is your best friend's theme song?

Breakthrough - Coming Century - Anime: Eyeshield 21 [Yeah! Its gonna be a breakthrough!]

What is the story of your life?

All of the worlds - Kutless [Yes! My life will be all of the worlds]

What was high school like?

Take it Easy - Eagles [Yeah I guess I was really taking it easy =X]

How can you get ahead in life?

Glamorous - Fergie fet. Ludacris [Being hip will get me ahead? (Never thought of that)]

What is the best thing about your friends?

Girlfriend (Japanese Version) - Avril Lavigne [ 0,o What is that supposed to mean?]

What is today going to be like?

If god made you - Five For Fighting [An uplifting perhaps? I can't wait!]

What song describes you?

Every Breath you take - Sting [The stalker song! =O But if i judge by the title... Every breath i take... Go figure...]

How is your life going?

Michi ~ To You All ~ - Aluto - Anime: Naruto Shippuden [ Michi (Road) ~ to you all ~ Yes! I am on a road, a journey!]

What song will they play at your funeral?

Unbelievable - Thousand Foot Krutch [OMG It really is unbelievable!!!! I died! The Wolf has died!]

How does the world see you?

Colours of the Wind - Vanessa Williams [I am the like the wind! (No clue what that's supposed to mean)]

Will you have a happy life?

Its alright - Showtaro Morikubo (Kirihara Akaya) - Anime: Prince of tennis [Yep my life is gonna be alright!]

What do your friends really think of you?

Crashed - Daughtry [I'm crashed? Huh! No way!]

Do people secretly lust after you?

Atrophy ((of a part of the body) to be reduced in size and therefore strength, or, more generally, to become weaker) - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus [Err.... huh?]

How can i make myself happy?

Break Me down - Alter Bridge [I gotta break myself down! Then climb back up XD]

What should you do with your life?

Blue Night - Michael Learns to Rock [Blue night? If I follow the lyrics... then... It makes more sense]

Will you ever have children?

Rise Today - Alter Bridge [Today!? WHAT!]

Best SA Friday EVER!

2008-04-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Well first off let me wish Lui Di, my CG mate, a big happy birthday on my blog. HAPPY BRITHDAY!

Hmm its a super late post... It actually is a saturday but i changed the blog timing to about half an hour ago. I.E. 2359...

OKay enough of that crap. Lets start off with my post to why this is the best SA FRIDAY EVER! 1) Went for breakfast today with the group! Haha not much to talk about... but still it was just nice and interesting. Hope we all can do this all the more often ^^

2) NO GOEG! I had like nuts of lessons today! Nothing at all except for PW and .... Civics class!!! YES! During PW I was so totally browsing the NFL superbowl highlights... so it was quite slack =X O! I too a freeze frame picture using the visualiser! Ibrahim, Danial and Weng.

3) Birthday meeting at Mac with Hsiao En and Li Min =D haha yeah just went there to pass them the cards and talked to the both of them for a while! My card was kinda slipshod... i was doing it while on the way to mac! XD But i really hope Lui Di likes it! SACG members just amaze and awe me each time i meet them! Can't wait for tomorrow!!! (Today to be exact)

4) LIFE CONCERT!!!! YEAH!!!!

It was real fun! I think i came out with a sore throat and all that. I was singing, jumping and everything! I hope everyone enjoyed it! I hope the people who went did not mind the songs! I personally thought they were great! I know how to sing most of them which is even better!!! Haha. Wow you know I was jumping so much that my legs gave way as i walked up the stairs XD Shouting the lyrics out so much i almost went mute. I went down and was so near the speakers, i almost went deaf =X

O BTW Rachel you were great! Just fantastic! Plus you were sweating a lot!!!! Woo Hoo!!!

I want the list of the Life Concert songs!!!! I want it NOW!

5) Nearing the end of the concert, i received a message from Jarrat! YEAH!!! YTSS gets into the finals of the JG's!!!! DEBATE ROCK ON!!!!

Ahh haha nothing much to blog about so... i'll just leave it here =D Everyone enjoy the weekend and peace =D

Long time no post

2008-04-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

Whoa you know there is so many thing I wanna post about on so many days.... My brain hurts from doing PI now and its just that I may not remember some things XD

Let start with Tuesday! SACG at Toa Payoh! It was the three kings game with a twist, instead of using water, we used drinks (Green Tea, Peach Tea and Coke) Yeah... after a while many HAD to go to the toilet! I myself must confess that I was waiting for very very very long before i could not take it either! After all and more fun stuffs, we all went down to TPY Hub. So had dinner there and I wasn't planning to take any food there but the kind souls of the most funnest CG bought me dinner! Thank you everyone! Domo arigatou!

Wednesday was my super long day with Pre - Uni Seminar... Before that had to go for mentoring interview.... I think the Seniors found my answers a bit too cliche... Two of them were laughing... hmm I'm not sure why... I hope i'll get in or sth.... who knows! Then it was down to PUS and Mr Leong came late and we the presenters group did not do much at all!!!! YAY!!! SAJC beat MI 44 - 0 scoring 8 tries and converting two kicks. SO yay!!!! O went out to catch shutter... found out I hated self inflicting scenes.... I find them disturbing =X

Paper roses are cool ^^ gotta suck all the skill from Johannes! Haha

TODAY! Was my most longest day with me having to sleep late as I was doing my presentation handout thing....

ANyway it was quite alright cus I have a secret to share... but that comes later...

Yeah it is a super long day with all the lessons crammed up into one... Chinese is cancelled tomorrow so yippie!

O yeah met with Jon Tay for just some talk time and came out knowing a bit more about him and about me.

Must thank him for the dinnner!!!! YAY!!! and my food ^^ Thanks a bunch!

NOW HERE IS THE SUPRISE!!!

This is the most perfect person in the world!!! OMG if he ever says that again... im gonna draw on this picture!

THats my GP teacher. I bet S14 would love this XD

I hope i dun get killed for this !!!

LIFE CONCERT TOMORROW !!! YES YES YES!

Need some rest now so... night night everyone!

School post

2008-04-09T10:55:00.001+08:00

CB = MX + J (Kia Boon's idea) Go figure what the heck that means... i.e. ask Kia Boon

Anyway was too tired to blog yesterday night and decided to make a short post in the school's com lab. Yeah i'll post about yesterday's night tonight (If you can still follow my sentence) Kinda rushing the post... Well for a very simple reason that my class is starting soon.

Guess what people in the morning went for breakfast, met up with part of the SACG people and then just talked for a bit... It was quite quiet though.. =( Well i really hope we you know... get used to it *Hopes*

After that was geog!!! OMG! We had an earthquake exercise... Yeah we decided to hold a drill and we practially ducked under and into the tables -.- Damn... It was bloody lame....

Anyway now in the Com lab... Thou shall post something that was wanted to post yesterday night other than what happened...

Hmm... You know... I think I go too much out of my way to help people and I think that due to a few recent events that I might have made things worst for a couple of people. So if you are reading this... I just wanna say sorry *Bows*

Well I guess now its time to go to class!!! Cya! O yeah Mentoring interview!!! Haha wonder if I have to qualifications... If I don't get in then... it would really be messed up for me to choose and try to get into yet another CCA XD